1:11 a.m.

the train echoes in the distance

throughout the empty city

the same way my brain hums

to drown out your name

and as the raindrops sprinkle down my window

i'm reminded of how many times i have cried out

for everything i have outgrown

for unrequited love

my past self

for a future where things feel lighter

and more put together

than anything i have coiled myself in

and although painful

i will find peace

learning more about what i need

who i am

and where i'll be

hoping this release

brings me something just as beautiful

as the budding flowers

and sprouting leaves

gift mother earth

after her cleansing for spring