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Unwanted

Unwanted By Others, But Loved By me

By MdotJamPublished 3 years ago 3 min read
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That LoOpy Chick in action.

I am unwanted... but that’s just...me. It’s always been this way. I don’t know what it is. At this point I kind of just roll with it. I’m used to it. I pretty much expect to be unwanted no matter where I go. I personally feel that it would be a cold day in hell before anyone is attracted to who I am.

Who Am I ?

I’m a plain bagel, no cream cheese wanted, no cream cheese needed. I’m awkward and strange, but only sometimes. I can end a conversation without even trying. I love to organize events but would prefer to watch others have fun versus interact. I know the moment that I do, it can change the mood. I sometimes day dream of being different. I dream of having an attractive personality. To be someone that people are drawn to, but that’s not the reality. The reality is... I am unwanted.

I am extremely logical. I’m also a very literal person. I spend my time defending tv show characters like Sheldon from “The Big Bang Theory”, And Brennan from “Bones”. Aside from their genius level IQs, and atheists views, I identify with their personalities. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to have such a high IQ. That’s the trade off right? When you have a unattractive personality there should be a trade off. Redeeming qualities.

What are my redeeming qualities?

* Loyalty. I’m loyal to few, but I’m loyal to a fault.

* Integrity. With the way I operate, my integrity should never be in question.

* Pride Check. Sometimes we all have to check our pride when we’re wrong. I will admit, and apologize when I’m wrong.

* Self-Analyzation. This can sometimes be tied into the “Pride Check”. I take the time to analyze my own words, and actions. I take time to ask myself questions, to make sure I don’t miss any subconscious behavior.

These redeeming qualities may not mean much to some, but they’re everything to me. It’s a perk of being unwanted. I had to learn to love myself early. I found ways to accept, want, and love myself. So when I say I’m okay with being unwanted, I mean I’m ok with being rejected by others. Well...I’m ok with the rejection most of the time. I’m human, so sometimes it does gets to me. Sometimes it’s just nice to be wanted, and accepted by someone who isn’t me.

-That LoOpy Chick-

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*I find it hilarious that this piece was inspired by the song “Wanted” By Hunter Hayes *

ThatLoOpyChick.com

Writer/Blogger/Podcaster.

Writer: I’ve been writing since I was about 12. I’ve been sharing my writings on the interweb since about 13. In the past my writing has always sporadic. I have recently made it a goal to be more consistent. Write once a day. I write poems, reviews for tv, anime, movies, and more. I do pieces on cosplayers. I write about my feelings, I write to vent. I pretty much write about everything.

Which brings me to Blogging. Oh boy do I blog. Blogging gives me life. If it’s a form of blogging that exists, I want to do it. I want to do all of them!

Which leads to PODCASTING. Believe it or not video, and audio podcast are both a form of blogging. I’ve made multiple attempts at podcasting. My biggest issue is consistency. My second issue would be project overload. I put too much on my plate, then nothing gets done. My latest podcast is titled “Wake Up LoOpy”

It’s basically a show where I invite guest to have LoOpy conversations. Some are arm wrestlers. Some are Gamers. Some are fellow podcasters. Etc. Wake Up LoOpy currently has 2 episodes on Spotify.

Summed up. I’m basically this LoOpy Blerd Chick that likes to talk a lot, and express myself. I use multiple forms of blogging to do that.

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About the Creator

MdotJam

Journal blogger that writes about self-analyzation, self reflection, epiphanies, and personal growth.

There is also a podcast to go along side my journal pieces

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