This letter to me

Dear Jim,

You really gotta consider it all ahead and use the new year. I know you say you do and you sometimes run out of breath because you talk so long in that direction trying to get someone to notice that was the wrong direction we were headed in, but fix it. Don't leave that mess on the table. I know it started to get like an unruly group of misguided children in a classroom that push the teacher's authority to its breaking point but you can't let that go. When you do you lose so much. Now think about it. When the factors in the equation are more like moving pieces, like planets in a universe, you better just get up anyway. Jesus, don't it all just seem to move so slow, but you watched so much of it slip away like that, like a country river, and you know the rapids are rough. As a note to you, don't forget the many things you've learned, the Eden between the Tigris and Euphrates, the cradle of life, crazed moves and wonders of the Vikings, how you know Scandinavian language is the sound of  Germanic and French, and a man and woman traveled their to start a family and started a clann or cland, The entire story of Heaven, the insanity of roaving hordes and their terrible paths across plains and mountainous regions in Asia. We know that still impacts the world today. Don't forget the tragedies.  Romeo and Juliet, Tsar Nicholas II, Macheavelli, Socrates, the argonauts, Julius Ceasar, Cleopatra, Leonardo da Vinci, Michaelangelo, Joan of Arc, Christopher Columbus. Re-recognize the status of the globe and that it was given to you and you cannot refuse it. She maybe a bit of a clunker that you inherited but with a little maintenance you can get her running well again. You have to remember the joys in life and find them again.

Now, take all of that and live off of it.  Distribute that and don't over stay your welcome. Pay better attention instead of letting the attention you pay end up aimed at you like a runaway eighteen wheeler. I know you've been run over so many times by your inability to stop those collision points from occurring. Especially when you see them approaching like a blimp but know the impact is more like a speeding train. I don't where you'll do that. I don't know how you'll do that. You have to find that. I know that didn't go very well before so you better do that better now so you have to try even harder. Don't forget the many times that scream like a hundred times, like a blaring alarm in your head and you count those as failures and you should no matter what they say and they can't take that from you, God knows you want to let them but they can only make it hurt less so that's the second place finish you know you didn't want to accept as good enough because it just isn't good enough. Reevaluate a get it right.

Take time to learn the roses, teach the lessons of the flowers, watch baseball, basketball, football, hockey but more golf and more tennis and more soccer. I don't know why she didn't love you. I know why it matters that much. Remember what you lost and carry it with you but make an impact that helps. Remember it could be a soft landing or a deep crater, just make sure the impact is best. Remember it might have been you that made you this alone. I think when you were running to get there you ended up running backwards. Now you have to figure out how every breath you've ever breathed with every word you've ever spoken wasn't wasted. It's so noticeable now because there just isn't any evidence of success for you and the white in your sideburns is noticeable. You watched time turn into white in your sideburns like a trees leaves change color in Autumn but you couldn't solve five minutes that were five miles away. Not to mention all the many other things on your mind. So clean out your attic. You've put alot into building your house and you've gathered alot to give back to the world so it's time to give back. That is the purpose. So get it to the world with 2021.