Life Lessons

I knew growing up that I was different to other people. I knew that I had a different way of looking at life and how I wanted to live it.

I never focus on boys at school or college, I focus more on myself and what career path I wanted to fall into. I remember being at school and thinking what I’d be like at 27-years-old and wondering how long that was till I’d be at that age. Here I am thinking, "Am I happy with how my life has turn out..." The answer... is yes and no. I have no regrets of the choices I’ve made I just wish I had a more idea on what I wanted to do career wise and maybe I wouldn’t be in a situation where I’m still thinking about what I want to do.

I always found it difficult because I never had any vision of what career path I wanted to be in. I remember wanting to be an actress. So, I took a few drama classes but I just never pushed myself after leaving the drama class a few months into it to try again in a new class. I just stuck to art to get grades and then decided to study travel and tourism because I love to travel. After college, I had a year where I was unemployed with hardly any money trying to get in the aviation industry and with no success—apart from an opportunity with Servisair at a check in desk—I turned that down to focus on fashion due to watching a fashion program. And that’s where I got into retail and I never thought I would’ve been doing it for five years with well known designer brands. With my first retail job I just thought. "Let’s see how this goes." I just see what happens and that’s the thing.

The thing is I always let life happen and see what happens next. I never let my life get in the way of something if it was an opportunity in a career to travelling. I have always sit back and let my actions guide me and I’m still not sure if that was the best way to be. Should I have been more directed with myself in what I wanted to be and take further action, maybe. Even though I think it’s too late to do it I also think to myself is it never too late? I’m still in the peak of my time. I’m only 27 turning 28 this year. I know I still have many more precious years to come. The truth is I don’t want to waste these valuable years ahead of me—or even at this moment—because being this age is probably the best years of my life and I don’t want to throw it away! I wanna look back in five years time and say I had a blast in my 20s.

Who would’ve thought that I’d been to America three times, Paris twice, Spain and Amsterdam once while travelling all over the UK. I’ve had some amazing and wonderful memories in my personal life, but I want to create something amazing in my career. I don’t want to look back and think, "Did I do enough? Did I push and dream big to get the career that I want or did I just not dream of a bigger picture?" I’ve been thinking a lot in the past year or so... thinking of what life would be like if I just dreamt that much bigger... only time will tell.