Broken

Where does the go when yor left broken hearted? All the plans and memories turn to ash at your feet. Everything you have worked for and built feels meaningless and useless. It seems like everyone around you continues being happy and living their best life. While you are left lying in the flames of your most painful moment. It's as if people on the street know that your heart is so broken that it may never be put back together. You drag your broken heart around for all to see, and for everyone to poke fun at. Although no one is poking fun at you. All the plans and We no longer see the good it's the pain and suffering that consumes us. Everything we do is done with our heartbreak out in the open. We think with it , we feel with it, we eat with it. Hell we even bathe with it.

We try to scrub it off(doesn't work). We try to drown it in food again doesn't work. We try and think without it being there but we are too afraid to experience that pain again . So we avoid situations that might cause that pain . In turn we miss out on the good we could have now. We feel that happy we once had and we run screaming in the opposit direction for fear our heart will break again. We let fear and pain cover all the good we could have until that's all that is left.

Slowly we reach for the glimmer of the good we miss hoping that all the dark and twisty will go away just for a while. Still we are scared and sometimes we hide behind those walls we built trying so hard to never be brokenhearted again. We wait hoping that someone will find us in our dark and twisty place and that they will love us regardless. We hope upon hope that they can help us find the good again. That they can look us in the eye and tell us that we are attractive and they love us no matter what . Sometimes these people leave us just as broken as we were found. There will be someone to come and pick you up and show you where the good went. They will tell you everything you need to hear and be everything you need. Until that point just keep looking for where the good has gone . Try to unbreak your heart and make yourself strong and whole. Remember the good is always there sometimes it's buried under broken pieces that no longer serve a purpose. Sometimes our broken heart is just to help us see what we don't want or need in lives. To prepare us for the good we deserve.

We need to be willing to let go of the broken and damaged pieces so we can claim the good we want and need. Look at yourself and say "I know I'm strong and attractive." " Noone can tell me I'm not worth it because I am." Don't let anyone make you feel less than you are . There is a time and place for the pain of a broken heart. There is a country song that says "this isn't your mama's broken heart" Keep that in mind anyone can give you advice but it is your broken heart and your pain. You must decide when you have had enough of the pain and hurt. You have to choose when you are ready to move past it. It is a process and it is worth it to take your time so you don't miss the good that is coming.