It is truly amazing to think about how far I've come this year. The amount and depth of personal growth I continuously experience is positively overwhelming at times. Sometimes, I just walk around smiling ear to ear because my spirit is at peace. I am on the path to becoming exactly who I want to be, and I'm loving every moment of it. Even the hard ones.
In the past, I was never satisfied. I had an insatiable restlessness. I felt like I could and should be doing more with my life, I just didn't know what it was. So I tried a lot of different things. After I graduated from college in South Carolina, I moved to Atlanta, literally, the same day. My family had come from Philadelphia for my graduation but I didn't return home with them. Equipped with a business plan, a newly obtained bachelors degree, and the confidence that I could do anything, I set off to Atlanta to follow my dream of becoming a young, successful entrepreneur.
That dream was short-lived.
After arriving in Atlanta and depending on a college friend to guide me to stability, I quickly accumulated more responsibilities than I could handle. I had an apartment and a car, and for some reason that I can't remember (probably ego), I quit my job at a collection agency. Real life hit me hard and fast. By the beginning of the next year, I was back in Philadelphia with my family.
I felt like a failure.
This reality check turned my attention toward spirituality for desire to understand life, and myself, on a deeper level. After years of seeking truth and forming my own ideas about the world while simultaneously trying to find my place in it, I have finally reached a place of contentment, acceptance, and optimism fueled by a newfound love for myself. On the outside, it may not look like much has changed since I moved back to Philadelphia almost five years ago, however the leaps and bounds I have made on the inside are undeniable. Through meditation, I have learned not only to understand myself, but to truly accept myself, even the darkest parts of me. I don't have to be perfect, I just have to know who I am and why I do what I do. I don't have to have all the answers, I just have to have goals and methods of actively reaching them. Loving myself is nothing more than embracing and being confident in everything I am, and changing the things I don't like. Once I released myself from the pressure of what other people would think about me, I began to have a more satisfying existence. I read something recently that really stuck with me, and I think it's a core statement to stand by, especially when struggling with self-love and self-acceptance.
"You're not afraid of failure, you're afraid of embarrassment. The good news is—no one cares."
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