My Dream Job Has Always Been "Rockstar"

I Can Stop At Any Time

I can either stop, and avoid a challenge, or find a way to climb that wall. And if I can't climb it, I can do everything in my power to go around it, dig under it, or maybe even plough right through.

The only difference is the choice I make.

What Did I Accomplish This Year

• I knew when it was time to ask for help
• I started a blog and a podcast
• I changed jobs
• I had the courage to walk away from what wasn't suiting me
• bought new bed sheets
• bought new towels
• a pressure cooker
• perfected my soup making abilities
• found my beloved meditation group

My Body Needs Water to Thrive

• My body needs to run to feel centered
• My body needs rest for my head to clear

What Do I Need From My Community?

• I need for my community to change sometimes, so I can realize how much I appreciate them
• My community needs more of my homemade soup
• Where I live, does not necessarily dictate my community

What Do I Need From Myself?

I need space from myself. I need space from my own head. I need empathy from myself.

My body needs me.

My mind needs space.

My heart needs to love.

My community needs to change.

From myself, I need latitude.

My Leaves-of-Absences

I chose twice this year to temporarily separate myself from unhealthy work environments. I needed to take care of myself. During these times, I created and grew a blog and a podcast, for the purpose of sharing my experiences. I struggled with the loss of a younger cousin, and a very funny friend.

My Arms Are Wings

When my life got tough, I turned to that crazy therapist. I took a chance, and I flew. I have decided to take on this thing, whether I run it or not.

I am proud of my resilience.

December 31, 2020

I discovered that I had a number of extended family members, who were just as curious about me as I was of them.

I am indeed more hopeful because I took a month to empty out my insides, so I could prepare my outsides.

Good things might be waiting for me in 2021: An unexpected success for the "P" project, and complete eradication of COVID.

One final breath and salutation over my pen and notebook.

In 2021, I Will Be . . .

I will be in greater control of my energy, as I continue to create my path, and travel down that road.

In 2021 I will complete the "P" project. It matters to me because it's a beautiful story, which needs to be told. It is a gift which I have been given. I know I can do it because I am capable, creative, and I know how the machine works. It needs to be fed.

The love is all around me.

I am a whole person.

Breathing space. More self compassion. Be present with people, and my environment. Life is precious.

Thank you for showing up.

Carry your intention.

Personal & Work Values

• An honest day's work for an honest day's pay
• Live and let live
• Don't take any of this too seriously.

I do not receive any emotional fulfillment from the work I do. Yes I do need to earn more money, job security, and especially adequate time away from work.

My dream job has always been "rockstar." But I now want to be the Karen Lichtman version of Rich Roll and/or Casey Neistat. I would also love to earn a living by giving my vegan burritos and soup away for free, and make health and fitness free and accessible to everyone.

I feel that this is my calling, instead of a grind.

Are my internal values more or less important than the external things I receive? It depends. Are my bills getting paid? Do I have a bit of dough for leisure activities? Or is every day a struggle? And how is that struggle affecting me?