At My Lowest

For as long as I can remember, I focused on everything and everyone but myself. I became an afterthought to current events, family and friends - and because I was raised to care for those around me, it didn't bother me at all.

I worked long hours on nothing but Monster Energy drinks and cigarettes and didn't eat until dinner time - Which I killed. All. The. Time. And I was okay with that! Because I was young and I thought I was invincible. Slept only four hours each night because I'd rather hang out? Pshh! I got my Monster Java's and, besides - who needs sleep? Amirite?

Then I met my now husband and I had my children. I did everything the doctors told me to do, ate everything they said I should. But once I popped them cuties out, I was right back in the work field doing the very same thing I did before: over working myself with a non-existent self-care, self-love routine.

Oh, I loved my dead sea salts and charcoal face masks but that was as far into self-care I got. I still lacked the nutrition, I still lacked proper sleep and though I was quite active as a camera op for the local news station and as management at the local early childhood facility, I was not active enough to be healthy.

Flash forward into 2020 and I'm sitting here wondering how I can come back from this. 😔 I'm feeling like I'm at my lowest physically, mentally and regretting never taking the time to care of me. I felt like I was everything for everyone but nothing for myself and it was starting to really take its toll. I was always tired, my body was always aching and I was never happy.

That had to change. 🙅🏻‍♀️ Pronto.

So here I am folks, taking that plunge after spending all those years "researching" every possible way I can shed some of this extra fluff I got going on. 💪🏻 I warred with myself over and over about why I could and could not focus on me - used that well worn excuse of never having time. I mean, c'mon! I'm a mother of three very active children that all fight for my attention - who has the time? Ever? Amarite? {heh}

I love my babies. I would give them anything - right down to the dinner on my plate. Moms/Dads... you know exactly what I mean. Haha I give them everything they need, want... but I was not in the position to give them the best of me.

And that, folks, hit me hard.

So, with the help of Herbalife, I have decided to embark on a very difficult journey. A journey of shedding old, bad habits forged throughout the years for better, healthier ones. For a lifestyle that would allow me to be there every step of the way for my children. And to finally be at peace with the woman I have become - am becoming.

If you feel like you're in the same position - like you're stuck between a rock and a hard place and you just can't seem to see that light at the end of the tunnel... and you know that the light is there ... message me. Myself and my team would be more than happy to walk with you through this journey.

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Have you ever hit your rock bottom? What were some ways you overcame that darkness?