A DAY OF MY DIARY

In the beginning, I would like to thank this site, and I hope that my story will have your satisfaction.

• This is not a fantasy story at all, but it represents me personally, it's a real-life story that happened to me at some period in my life. Which I learned from, of course. So, I will start it and every letter of it speaks for itself. I had this story seven years ago. I was an employee at that time in the private sector and worked for a prestigious company. I took care of my family, which is consists of my wife, my eldest daughter, and three kids, they were for me the fuel and energy needed to persevere and keep a source of my livelihood and my work, where I used to work shifts. I've been working for more than ten years, working tirelessly. And one day, I was working at the end of the night shift, I got a lot of pain in my back, and I felt like someone was holding me from Back in his hands, but it's actually a pain, and I remember at the time that my mind took me to my family to fear for them, and what would happen to them. I got confused and bad thinking in my mind. Then i didn't feel myself, except in the ambulance, my thought took me away, and I'm getting ready to go to the hospital. Really, the feeling was terrible, when the person has a complex feeling between Pain or fear of losing his beautiful life with his loved people or of course, losing himself. And there in the hospital, I remember the nurses they were doing tests, and then I didn't feel myself until I was in intensive care. At that moment I realized that my condition is critical. They told me my kidneys didn't work, the lungs were full of water, and I had to sign the papers.

To make an emergency catheter to help the kidneys do their job, but I was really in shock. At that time, I don't feel any more pain in my body, then I asked myself, do I agree with the doctors? Or is there another solution. In the meantime, I told the chief doctor to let me go home, and if anything happens to me after that, I will come again, but the doctor refused, saying the toxins in the body were too high according to normal rang. And this will have serious consequences, but that not convince me and all that I think was only to be with family. In fact, I don't know why I refused to stay in the hospital, because I'm not convinced of the diagnosis or I don't believe in the ability of doctors, or why the kidneys stop without introductions or maybe all of them. and I insisted on my position and refused to sign the papers to make the catheter. The doctors were amazed by my situation. I called my brother and told him to take me home. My brother came and he refused in the beginning but, I told him, don't convince me, then he took me home and everyone is distraught .after that, we left to home like I wasn't sick, and I told my wife that my problem was simple and that doctors always making things big. There's nothing to worry about, and that's really what I've been talking about. Believe me, attachment to life is a terrible thing. That night I couldn't sleep at all. and in the morning, I wasn't complaining about anything, and I told my brother to take me to another hospital to make sure only, and I didn't feel any pain at that time. In the second hospital.

We didn't tell them what happened to me last night and after tests, the surgeon told me I had the same problem. So, I told him exactly what happened to me. He was really surprised by what happened to me, but he convinced me to stay in the hospital tonight because the toxins were higher than the normal average, and if I don't feel pain, it doesn't mean I'm healthy. Finally, I agreed to stay under observation. The strange thing is that, in the day I don't feel the pain and the night is getting more, and that's what I was surprised by. The important thing is the pain increased, and the blood came out of my mouth, the cough increased, and there's no doubt that I need at least a surgical intervention. It was so hard at that time. When I feel tired. Then the surgeon came and told me to get ready. That night, the catheter was in my right leg, and it was temporary for 10 days, and the dialysis was done for the first time for four hours straight, and after I got out of the o.r. everyone was happy to be back. The doctor told me to do one day of dialysis and another day rest, and it was done for 10 days. Unfortunately, when dialysis was performed, and the percentage of toxins was unstable, means decreased and after dialysis increase again on the same day. pre-catheter kidney function was less than (10 %) From kidney function, and after dialysis, it became (0%) for kidney function, and the percentage of toxins inside the body is high, which means that the temporary catheter should be changed by the permanent catheterization. And new kidney transplant from another donor, as the doctors recommended, and they advised me not to be late.

So, I agreed directly, and a permanent catheter was made in my chest, and I was transferred to a hospital near the house. And that's where a new phase of the suffering is dialysis day and rest day so that one time is 4 hours for three days a week. Of course, by the system, a certain amount of fluid, and the average half-hour walk to an hour a day if possible, and I'm overburdened with worries. Now my life changed and I started to suffer from the new reality. Before I was on a sick leave. After that, I went back to work, where my duty is an office job only, and it doesn't require physical effort. Mostly, after the period of continuous dialysis. I noticed the sympathy around me clearly, which helped me to accept my situation, but compassion was something different because it was frustrating to me. For this reason, my concern is to follow all the doctor's instructions, and to take care of my health more, and I don't forget my life partner, my wife. The beloved, who has been serviced tirelessly, and who is the unknown soldier of my life, and the one who deserves my thanks and gratitude. She was organizing the meal schedule according to the list the doctor gave me the number of fluids. Actually, I used to my new routine, from work and home to boring laundry sessions. And while I was living with this situation, I got a call from the specialist hospital which concerns making a kidney transplant !!!!!!

• Now in this part I will stop for the first part of my story, and I'll be back to finish it in the second part, wait for the second part .