Life is a ball that goes round and round.

Life is a mix of fun and responsibility. You get what you put out in the end. if you want it bad enough you will grind to get it. I have been exposed to earning from a very young age. I have not made it to the point of having all my needs met. I am still living under the poverty level. It still does not stop me from trying to earn.

I find people completely abusive of my kindness and need to stock up. I have been accused of having too much of this and too much of that. But it has not been too much when I came convienient for others. I am beyond tired of being put in the position to be be obligated. I have been in the home setting for many years. I know the blessing a roof offers to my comfort and security.

I find it hard to see how someone would spend $300 on a handbag but refuse to give it to a landlord. I can't change how I feel or see that. I just want to stay away from people who can do that. Then come to me for saving. I think if that is not abusive to you. I am scared even more. I know many people that would leave a wayward bum on the street.

My heart wants to at least try to help someone. You know it really hit me hard when I learned some just prefer that wayward life style. Easy is so much better than working hard. I am on the grind now to pay my outstanding bills. I am not late on anything so that alone is a blessing. I just have to keep my mind in control.

I have been hitting the casino. I don't want ever to be in a situation to be greedy. if I put in $20 and I earn $20 That is enough for me to be happy. I am grateful I guess for a come up in any way that provides me cushion. I don't want to go in and get up and keep playing until I leave with not a cent of my earnings.

I am so happy that the games have been good to me. Yesterday, I was able to pay 2 bills and buy myself a treat for my fleamarket table. shays_creations is working so hard to get on the grind that I am even back to making my greeting cards. Listing them on goimagine.com and ebay.com. I am glad my mental issues are at bay.

I don't need to be out there saving the world when I need saving. I am truly getting to the point that if you like slumming it. I will like it for you. One of the best changes for me inside and out was learning about this site here. In one way or the other it have given me a place to voice my mind. I have truly been reading and I love how others feel about things.

Good bad or just down and ugly life is a blessing to have. I am working hard to keep my focus on grinding and getting one of my bills paid in full. You just have to want it bad enough to keep pushing. I don't mean go out and break the store window open and take what you want. If you have a computer please use it for all it provides you.

If you have spare time try to get a hustle & grind to make you happy. Just you and nothing more. It will fall in place or you will fail. You can't get either of those outcomes if your not willing to try.