You Didn’t Mean to Fall In Love With A Quirky Introverted Girl

Don’t fall in love with a quirky introverted girl, she will take you by surprise.

You’ll think maybe she’s nothing much. Too unbalanced to fit into your busy life.

She doesn’t really have a knack for conventional work and is definitely not a morning person.

She rolls around in your blankets, she pulls and tugs at all your sheets at night. She startles awake to the sound of her alarm. She reaches for snooze, and falls abruptly back to sleep.

She scrambles again at the same alarm 5 minutes later, and 5 minutes after that…and 5 minutes after that.

She ruffles her coiled hair, mumbling something about how 9–5 isn’t really her thing.

She flops out of bed, naked-bottom bouncing behind- still getting ready for her 9–5 until she can make some real money from being creative.

She sits on the toilet and yells at you to come hear the dream or story idea she has- first thing in the morning.

She journals, she prays, she closes her eyes to the sun, letting the rays energize her.

She goes outside barefooted and digs her toes into the ground, she caresses tress.

Don’t fall in love with a quirky introverted girl. She talks to animals and cries through almost every movie- even when the villain dies, because she’s sure he just had a bad childhood and needs love too.

She doesn’t seem to talk much to anyone else- but she won’t shut up with you. In the middle of the night, she has an idea, in the afternoon she is thinking, and especially in the bathroom. She loves to burst through the door declaring she’s found the meaning of life- while you’re just trying to take a dump.

You never have a normal conversation anymore- but weirdly enough you’re starting not to mind.

You may go willingly or she may drag you to a contemporary art show- where you stand uncomfortably with people miming in your face.

You may go to drumming circles, poetry readings, musicals, plays, yelling circles, nude painting workshops, cat meowing classes, or maybe just for a drink or two.

Then sometimes you wonder if she’s even there at all, she retreats, she goes away, into her corner, reading her book, or looking out the window. Sometimes she looks solemn, sometimes she just does her own thing for hours on end.

You look from afar wondering if there’s something you need to do, but there’s nothing. She’s there, you’re there, there’s silence, and that’s okay.

You may think she’s absolutely ridiculous, absurd, and outrageous, then one day you start to think about her and smile.

It creeps up, then it starts rushing in.

You think about her smile, the way her eyes light up when she’s telling a story, the way she gets under your skin.

Don’t fall in love with a quirky introverted girl, because she will consume you. She doesn’t hold anything back, everything about her is intense, her art, her conversation, her passion, the way she gives you her body, so intense.

It might be too much, there is significant danger in exposing your hearts like this.

You may leave her because you’re not a big enough force to flow alongside her. There’s not enough room in your heart for her to take up space. And so she is left alone, again, to her solitude, back to the world she created.

She’ll be alright, she bounces back as she always does.

You’ll never forget her. Enjoy her, and set her free if you can’t hold all that she is.

Don’t fall in love with a quirky introverted girl if you can’t hold space for her in your heart.

If you can’t hold space for all that she is, and all she wanted to be with you.

~Arlene Ambrose~ from Assemblage