The voices within

It's so easy to be overstimulated in a world where we crave connection. We just want to know it all, feel it all and sometimes It all can just be too much.

Connection is such a beautiful thing. For instance, today I connected with a wonderful human and got to learn she was an artist in college, she works at Stewarts as a job. She was painting the outside of the Stewarts she worked at with her younger brother who was also very eager to converse as well. We shared stories, our social media platforms and spoke about our passions and being a part of the art world. It made me think of things on such a deeper level.

Being an artist, disconnecting is so needed. We get so much input and not enough output. We get this build up of all this angst and emotions. We get caught up in the politics, caught up in the social fights we arguably are always looking for ways to love humanity without often taking the time to learn about the humans around us. How many times do you go somewhere and you just meet someone, you have a incredible conversation or connection and you just leave it at that? You don't take the time to get to know about who they are or what makes them passionate. You maybe talked about the weather or the price of gas, things that obviously affect us as humans but not the things that are inside of making us move and work as a human.

I am a mother, a wife, an artist. I am so many things, but what creates me? What composes me, what makes me or defines me? Is it the fact that I am a nurturer, a lover, a fighter, also in many ways a pacifist? I believe sometimes the way to solve a problem is to speak, express, move, act. But what if the way to resolve certain things is silence? What if sometimes just simply being is all that is needed? There is an echo in the silence, one that moves and speaks louder than all the words that we can say or the ways we can feel. Sometimes it's about being alone in that silence, and feeling all the ways that you are you, all the emotions that are inside of you waiting to burst out from that eruptive volcano within.

We all have those moments when something inside of it is screaming and we ignore it. We look for external ways to silence it, we try to fill the void inside us that we think is there; but maybe it is not a void at all, maybe it is too much. Maybe it is the feeling of everything, everything that has seeped inside our souls: our pain, our joy, our love, our trauma. Maybe it is all the things we have no idea how to let out.

I encourage everyone who struggles with this, every human to pull yourself away close your eyes and breath. Take in the emotions, let them out. Find a place to let the wind just touch your skin, let yourself heal and be free. Find a place to scream, or jump or shout; let out all the emotions poured into you daily, return to yourself the love you give others and the love you know you deserve. Take a nice bubble bath, let the water just soak into you; or you can do as I'm doing now and grab your notebook and your pen or your computer and let your fingers dance to the motion of the feelings in your heart in need to express.

Everyone needs to find that inner peace in a world full of turmoil and disaster and distress. We need a way to express ourselves when the world has become cold or chaotic or violent or angry. We need to find a way to release everything inside of that we are so inclined to hold on. We need to do this because the world is changing and we don't need to, we don't need to let ourselves be scarred or pained. We don't always need to act or start a riot, just because the riot is within us. We need to love ourselves and love each other and not let the chaos consume us. The world will one day be no longer, at least this world as we know it, but what will always live on is who we are and how we lived, and our soul will always remember.

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