Most people dream about having a high school sweetheart and one day marrying them. As an adolescent, I never thought I was pretty or popular enough to achieve this goal until my sophomore year of high school when I met Tim. He wasn't a jock or anything but compared to me he was very popular. We shared a mutual friend and one day I confided in her that I was crushing on Tim. She ran and told him and he laughed and replied that he likes girls with a little meat on their bones. I wasn't too shocked, it has been what I have heard from everyone all my life. I took with a grain of salt and pushed Tim out of my mind.
So lately I've found that so many teens today say that they're "in love" and I wonder to myself, how does someone so young know what love is? I know that there are people out there that say that love is something like the warm embrace of someone that shares your life with you but what happens when that dies? My grandma told me that in your life there will be three loves:
Sadly, I don't have all the answers to your heartbreaks, but I’ll be here for you through everything. If you feel you can no longer stand, I will gladly sit next to you until you stand back up. I will help you through the rough times and the dark nights, I will dry your eyes, I will fight your fight, and I WON’T let go when you think you’re not gonna make it!
I catch myself day dreaming often. My mind twirling about in fanciful scenarios. Mental screen plays triggered by a simple action or phrase that reminds me of him in the smallest of ways, a message or phone call with him.
I would like to say I know something about love. After all I have been in three serious relationships within the last ten or so years. Of course they all ended at one point or another, but that doesn't mean I don't know what I'm doing, or at least I hope it doesn't mean that. My first serious relationship was when I was 13 years old.
You don’t naturally learn how to re-trust people. It’s a skill, an elaborate task you must put all your thoughts and efforts into attaining. And, even when you do think you have learned the art of trust, only specific people seem to ever truly earn it from you.
I met you in the winter. It all started because I was just being who I am and going around talking to strangers. And you liked that. The next thing I knew, talking to a stranger turned into talking to my best friend in the whole world. Day after day, not an hour went by that your name didn’t pop up on my screen. Stranger turned into friend, friend turned into like, like turned into love, love turned into infatuation, and then I was hooked. From the moment I realized how much you meant to me there wasn’t anything that anyone could say or do that would turn me away from you. I had fallen, and hard. Two years went by with me loving you and loving you and loving you some more but you didn’t love back. Yes, you loved me. I was your best friend, but did you need me the way I needed you? No. Did you want me the way I wanted you? No. And I don’t blame you. I was on a different level, one that I could never put into words, one that I could never tell anyone about. I was just your best friend and you were the love of my life.
So, I know everything seems like it’s falling apart around me, and the sun is nowhere cuz the rain storm is all over me, yet I got a promise to keep. I know I'm the biggest underdog in this story, but I refuse to not keep my promise. When things ended down there, I could have risked it and stayed down there, but I had a promise to keep and I had some unfinished business to settle. I could have stayed in my corner, but I had a promise to keep and I refuse to break the one that means the most to me. This whole storyline ain't no fairytale yet, and all I'm asking for is to be that one person who proved himself and got her to realize her true worth.
I got bored one day a long time ago and wrote this randomly, just for fun. However, each word is the truth. If she was standing right in front of me right now, I’ll promise it’s all the truth to her.
I fell in love with you quickly, no looking back, no apologies, no reason, except that I knew you were the one for me. I fell in love with you, not caring about what would happen once you fell in love with me too. I fell in love with you, thinking you’d probably leave me someday. And every time you stay, I understand why I fell in love with you the way I did.
A million years could go by and I’d still remember that last day I spent with you as if it was yesterday... Always remember... At the end of every storm is a rainbow. Never give up HOPE. CHERISH not just the obvious, but the little things as well. Days may fade, but what you cherish is forever in your heart. Thanking you for doing what you do is never enough. One thing is for certain, I will never forgive you. I promise I won’t. People say I need to let go of you... they say that I need to move on and forget about you... but what if I don't want to?... what if I want to remember you? When you feel the wind on your face, that's your angel kissing you; when you see a flower blooming through the snow, that's him saying, never forget, I'm still here. Don't let ANYONE tell you that you're nothing. You are worth something. Whether you make someone smile for a second or happy for a lifetime, you are a somebody. Remember me when you're lonely, remember me when you just wanna talk, remember me when you really need me, but don't remember me when you have no one else! We do not remember days, we remember moments. Make moments worth remembering. When the rest of the world sees you as a servant, remember there's one person somewhere that sees you as a princess. Remember that your best choices are made with both your head and your heart.