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Something About Your Love

I know I let you down.

By Emily BuehnerPublished 6 years ago 4 min read

When you want to say goodbye but you don't want to, you have to face the reality that you need to force yourself to leave for the better. You want to see the sunrise in the mornings but instead you only see your shadow from the cloud. It seems to never go away, it is there from dusk till dawn.

We look through the old pictures back to our childhood, when we had a life or so it seemed. We never thought it would end, I won't let myself give up because we are still trying to find our way. All grown up now and we think we know everything, but our parents remind us that there is so much more in life to learn. I've found my way.

Some day we say life is so hard that we just want to give up. It isn't right to want to give up, we think the world is out to get us. They said they will come back for you someday but we need to know that they won't go and leave for someone else. We say we have a hole in our heart, we feel as if the world is no more. Since you've been gone nothing makes sense. One day I'll know that you've been there by my side all along.

I need you so much I can't lose you, I won't let go. Is it love? Somebody tell me what's happening to me. There is a hole in my heart, with all the answers maybe we can save this. You can't see me cry as I watch my dreams all die. It's so quiet here and I feel so cold. This house no longer feels like home. When you told me you would leave, I almost fell to my knees. I should of known better. It hurts so much more.

You caused my heart to bleed and you still owe me a reason. I'm just left alone to cry. It hurts like hell. It's not like I make this choice. I'm holding on, why it is so much more than I can carry? If I just let go I'll be set free. Better days are not so far away, I don't want to waste another minute, need to get back on track. Wondering if I'll ever get that good shit back. I still got some fight left inside me. I've been lost, I've been found. Caught up in the crossfire, battle scars and breakdowns. If I'm strong enough would you wait long enough tell me if I could love again? Why can't I be honest, another broken promise, two hearts bleeding.

It's just the way I'm wired. Dying inside, you got me running for miles. NO, it's never enough, you are my favorite drug. I could stay here for days and get lost in your daze. You are my obsession. Something about your love I love. You've taken me to the dark side and shown me what it's like. YOU ARE MY OBSESSION. You watched me break and you took me home. I walked away and you let me go. You hit me like a title wave! I'm in love with a broken heart. How many days can I wake up wishing I could make it up to you. Trying to grow up but it seems far from near. You're probably getting stoned wanna be alone. I'm gonna make it up to you.

Maybe I just love the way it hurts. Maybe time won't heal a thing. I'm addicted to the hardest part. I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes. It's worst to finish than to start over. As long as I can feel you holding on, I won't fall. I'm not perfect but I'll keep trying. Was it something I said or just my personality? You hold a lot of crazy and I love it too. I got to tell you baby, I'm so crazy for you. Cold stone seduction that I can't get enough of.

I see it in the way you would do, where no one else could see through it. I could never let you down again. I do wanna love you, I do wanna try. If falling for you is crazy then I'm going out of my mind. You believed that I could be somebody. I just wanna hold your hand. What if I told you I'm not afraid to cry, what if I told you I'm sorry for late nights I can't remember.

You got my heart in a headlock, it's not your first time around, it's not my last time falling down. You're a king with a fool's crown. My mom always said I'd never learn. I act sometimes like I can hold my breathe but it doesn't stop my heart from sinking. You act like a ghost who just ran away without a trace. I know you're gone and I hope your well. I'm just hanging on by a wire. You run away and cold shadows and memories I can't erase. There's something about your love.


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Emily Buehner

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