Putting to Much Faith in Humanity

All my life I have always been told I'm naive. For the first time I know I am, all of my spring break I have been working hard to find a job with no luck. Today, my husband wants me to go back to hunting for a job. It's just a pain lately, one disappointment after another. Being mentally tortured by different companies constantly fighting for what I desire. I just need a job long enough to be able to afford a UHaul rental. I just want to leave Cleveland so badly. After getting accepted into Marshall University and going through with the transfer feels like the constantly fighting is draining in the fucking state of Ohio.

I feel naive for trusting my neighbour to keep their word. I am need of a microwave, and a toaster oven now I don't care anymore. The principal of the matter is, a promise was made, call me old school but when you make a promise aren't you supposed to keep it? She promised me, I guess her daughter has a microwave and toaster oven gathering dust in the garage. However, when she told me I would be going to an interview she said don't worry I would keep those things in my apartment when you come back I will bring them to you. That promise was never kept.

I still feel naive, and stupid for trusting her. I feel as though I made a mistake, and I'm starting to feel humanity is really lost. At least in this city very few and far between are there kind truly kind people.

Us good people are tired of being good people to ungrateful people. I feel tired so much lately. However, it's never easy. I'm used to always being on edge since being back in my country. I'm just tired of constantly struggling feeling this nagging sense breathing down my neck this is only the beginning.

After praying to my God, I feel more relaxed. It's just these worldly things are getting the better of me. I know that money is a neccessary for surviving, it has nothing to do with greed.

I've noticed in this city that a lot of innocent people are homeless there are plenty of people around with money able to show kindness to the weak. They choose not to, but one day the very person "you" turn away from and not help they will rise to the top. And Karma will drag those who does "you" wrong. When I was homeless last year for those two months no one helped me. Only my friends from Saint Lucia, and a few girls in the shelter. Those who saw me begging on the streets until I stopped and screwed myself watched me in disgust. Little do they know that, I will rise like a phoenix from ashe, and those who don't help will pay the price with karma. The rich don't stay rich forever in these dark times.

I learned from my own bio family in Ohio that unless they are getting something in return they don't want to help anyone. Thusfare, I have learned this is how most people are in this selfish country. I've seen the worst in humanity, though I have seen the greatest side of humanity as well.

It is probably the hardest thing in life, is being shown those who I thought were bio family did care. Turns out, it was just a facade.

Losing myself in the darkness, I was afraid I did. However, I didn't.

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