Once best friends now strangers.

@muzammilgooljar

When you sit in the eerie silence, alone in your room, your pillows are now drowned in your own tears. Your mind is now your enemy, it makes you look back at all the memories you had together; laughs shared, crazy moments that wrote the story of friendship, things that were done out of foolishness, unexpected outings, food that was shared or even taken without permission. You will now remember all the memories you have created together with your best friend, from dancing together and spoken out the fears you have, the calming hands of your best friend when you were through harsh times, you will now remember all the small details that were part and parcel in your relationship. No matter how you felt, when you were depressed and lost among people who would try to pin you down, your best friend were there with opening arms and soothing words. Your best friend will look after you like a sister patting her little brother's hairs before going to sleep.

Some actions have deep consequences, some words will resonate in your mind throughout your life, some people will remain in your heart no matter what and some people do not understand. Your best friend lied, your heart breaks into pieces, your best friend acts like you are a mere stranger, your heart stops, it starts to bleed. Your heart starts to pour flowing rivers of blood and your mind explodes, you become a victim of your own thoughts. You start to blame yourself for what happened, you are no longer at peace with yourself. For the wounds you have caused to your best friend's heart, you try to look for solutions but in vain. Then, you tell yourself; " He is my best friend, he will understand". No, he can't understand, because for him, he was betrayed by his most trusted friend. Right now, he is in great agony and maybe he will not speak to him again.

If someone can't accept the mistakes your best friend did, were you even friends? How dare you, you let a stranger disrupts your relationship? How can you judge based on what you see but can't be able to think for a moment and see where your fault lies too? Who are you to suddenly start acting like a kid who is complaining about who took his pencil? The same person you knew for almost all your life, has become the person whom you hate so deeply that you can't even see the good he has done?

Remember when your heart was first broken, who was there to stitch back together? When you were lost, who helped you to find the path once again? Your best friend were there always, loving you more than he could love himself. You can't make as if one simple action has made your friendship to go away?

Once best friends now strangers, words are able to describe but the emotions crawling in my mind right now, pulling me to the darkest part of my brain, my feelings are inexplicable. I am stunned, someone whom i have loved, hugged, cried and laughed together, today has sided with someone else to drag me down, causing my heart to become a graveyard of rotten memories. When a best friend becomes tired of apologizing, things will never go back to where it used to be. Today, as i write these with tears forming in my eyes, rolling down my cheeks. Hold your human dignity up high, you did your part, you apologized and deep down you have to know you are not to be blamed. Saying sorry is not one sided only, it has to be two way agreements.

To all other friendships out there, which are striving but still going strong, do not let a stranger disturb your relationship. Keep on sharing those laughs, those silly moments together, create a lot of memories and especially accept the mistakes your best friend made. As you read this, I hope you realized I did my best and my actions do not reflect the person I am. I have loved you with all my heart but now this same heart can not forget what you did.