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not a confession letter

by josh napper about a year ago in love
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not a confession letter

Not a day goes by without me wanting to tell you somethings but every time I get the courage to get the words out of the bottom of my stomach I just freeze like a little kid who got his tongue stuck to the pole in winter, and I get sweaty like its a 100 degrees in the summertime. so if you find this note of mine on the ground by your feet and decide to give it a quick glance here are some things I wanna make sure you know.

from the first glance, I stopped in my tracks, pretty sure I got whiplash from stopping faster than the speed of light. from the second glance, I stopped seeing anything raining and sadness, cuz the only thing that my eyes wanted to see was rainbows and sunshine since that's what reminded me of you. it's the small stuff that reminds me of the queen that I'm castles away from. not sure if you rather want it to be fall, winter, spring, or summer but dammit I wanna no. I wanna smash through those chains of your nightmares. I wanna be the one that you can't help but smile at no matter what is going on in the news. I wanna know your momma's name, I want your dad to think that his daddy talks to me don't scare me even though the only thing that scares me more is you looking sad. but since the rumors say something is up when I smile in your direction ...ya know.

but we in two different worlds the singer turned published author doesn't catch your eye, that's taken by the producer who owns the golden heart of yours. the chains are just at a friend level, so I gotta smile thru the second looks. I can't hate on him, he makes ya happy and that's all I wanna see but dammit does it have to be cuz him. two leaders of the future seeking to do the greatest thing this world has to offer but only one can succeed.

let me stop myself right here before I misstep but it's not like all our co-workers are putting two and two together like rocket scientists. he's got the home-court advantage and I just got a couple of hours a week to ask how's your day, cant all your days just be as bright as my world when you're nearby. so she can tell you that all I wanna do is take you behind closed doors but that's not true. I wanna take you all around the world so you can see all the places you have ever dreamed about seeing as a little princess. wanna take you to all the fancy restaurants so you can know what the best food this world has to offer tastes like. wanna take you to all the world of wonders and just not take my eyes off of you, cuz you're the only wonder I care about.

is it bad that I kinda wanna want him to fuck up, say the wrong thing, kiss the wrong girl, anything really? so you'll come to me and ask what's wrong with me with a tear in your eyes. That way I can go find a box of tissues and tell you to wipe your gorgeous eyes and that nothing is wrong with you, you're breathtaking stunning and if he doesn't see it then he's the biggest loser on the earth. and that any guy would be the luckiest man in the world to have you in their arms and to be the one in your heart. By the way, how was your day, did you eat today, how did you sleep, how's your momma and daddy? I just want to know if you dropped a sad tear or have shown any smiles since those eyes opened.

This ain't a confession letter, it's just a note based on how some random stranger feels about another random stranger. I have no clue who wrote it but if it puts a smile on your face then how about we pretend that I wrote it for a nice awesome time-stopping girl.

should I stop right here? yes. dammit, I should have stopped dear.... but here you are smiling like the goddamn queen of the rainbow skies you are as all these customers are holding their phones out, bet I get 1,000 views by the time I stop singing about you. should I do a backflip off this conveyor belt? but hey if the lover boy ever does get sent to the dog house, how bout you come over to my place and we'll party all night long with popcorn, ice cream, and pizza...all from the local dollar store. how bout we pick up a movie of your choice and I’ll try to look towards the screen for a minute or two.

Let me take a moment from looking into your beautiful golden eyes if I may speak with the ones that were the first to call you their little princess. Dear mom and dad, if we ever have the honor and privilege of coming face to face then please remind me to tell you thank you for creating the one thing that is simply perfection. Now I'm not trying to mess with your daughter's head or play games with her heart, I'm just simply trying to put a smile on that face that lights my world up when I'm pulling a double on 2 hours of sleep and I haven't eaten in 24. it's kinda easy to forget your stomach hurts when you forget to breathe.

So let me look right into your eyes, let me say this slowly as I block all these folks around us out and admit the truth. I know I’ll never have you but I just had to write you this song to make sure that every time that you hear this on the radio or since it's the 20th century probably youtube., you'll remember just how god damn special, beautiful, smart you truly are and that you deserve the very best that this world has to offer.

so I’ll end with this, Not a day goes by without me wanting to tell you somethings but every time I get the courage to get the words out of the bottom of my stomach I just freeze like a little kid who got his tongue stuck to the pole in winter, and I get sweaty like it's 100 degrees in the summertime. so if you find this note of mine on the ground by your feet and decide to give it a quick glance here are some things I wanna make sure you know.

love

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