I can remember knowing I was a lesbian because I felt it deep within even as a young child. I knew my feelings for women wasn’t what people call “ normal “ . I remember seeing this woman whom I thought was so beautiful. I wished that I could be with her. Being me, I knew I couldn’t tell anyone because I would get in trouble so I kept it to myself . Anyway I never came out of the closet lol I was outted by my mother being all up in my business. Okay boom so it’s ninth grade I was friends with this girl ( she was well known and I was too but not like her but everybody I came in contact liked me). Actually we wasn’t friends at first I’m remembering that part wrong lol. . . So I didn’t like her and her “crew “ because they acted so weird and prissy. Anyway one day we was in JROTC and somebody’s underarms smelled bad so some people wanted to do a smell check, everybody complied except for her soooo we knew it was her. Someone dared me to tell her that she need to wear deodorant and of course I did it lol ( not nice I know sorry guys ) . After that day she started wearing deodorant and I guess realized her “ crew “ wasn’t really her crew and gave me her number . No I don’t think she knew I was a lesbian shoot I didn’t even sort out my feelings yet so I wasn’t sure. Anyway we texted for months and hung out eventually along one another “ best friend “ but then something changed. I realized I liked her more than a friend like really really liked her . So I texted her and told her but was so nervous the whole time thinking like “ she won’t feel the same way “. Surprisingly, she said she felt the same way, I was so happy because it was like every feeling I’ve ever had hidden deep down inside of me made sense. But what came next I didn’t expect. . . So apparently my mom one day took my phone ( because she paid the bill ) & found out about me texting her how I felt. She wasn’t very supportive in fact she was mad. Back then now that I think about it, it seemed like the worst thing of my life but it actually was probably the best thing that could have ever happened to me. Although there was no happy ending with us because she was caught by my mom on the bus stop skipping school with a dude from our school lol ( she broke my little heart ) I did learn that she helped me out of the closet and I learned a very valuable lesson.
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Lesbian chronicles
Hello Guys, If you’re reading this then maybe you’re worrying about coming out of the closet to your loved ones or maybe you are the parent of someone who has just came out. Now some parts of this guide can apply to gay men but this is mostly for lesbians because it is written by one. Okay the first step to coming out is knowing who you are and who your family are. I say that because you may have really religious parents or homophobic parents. But this necessarily doesn’t mean that your parent will judge you and hate you. Trust me I know from experience. Second I say figure out who you are because the first questions people will ask are “ how do you know you’re gay or a lesbian if you never had sexual with the same sex”. & also know who you are for your own self because you have to know for sure if that is what you really want to do. Knowing yourself will help you tell your loved ones and honestly not care if they are supportive or not. Knowing yourself and accepting who you are and being happy with that is loving yourself! It takes someone courageous and strong to be able to come out despite all of the challenges people from our community face. Now after all of that is said and done know which parent to come out to first if not both because one is better than none right? That first parent would be the one you are almost positive that will be supportive. After talking to that parent, ask them to be there while you tell the other parent who you are. That support will be much needed. Even if you only have one parent make sure you tell them, you may not be able to go to another parent for support and it may be scary but you got this! After all is said and done you should now know who you are and you may or may not have support from your parents but now you’re strong and you are confident. The next step is to tell your other loved ones maybe a cousin because I’m already assuming that your best friend knew already lol . I think after all of these steps you can now figure out what your look maybe. If not it’s okay you don’t need to change anything you’re perfect the way you are. But for those of them that do get a new haircut, dye your hair or even wear clothes that are comfortable and not awkward for you. I’ve always been the type to wear whatever so I never actually changed up how I dressed. What’s comfortable for me may be jeans, a tshirt and some tennis. Don’t let me get started on the hair phase my first cut was a Mohawk and I have really thick hair so it was huge, bushy and curly. Then I cut it all off then grew it back and so on . I think the last hair I had was a man bun then I cut it off and then now I’m currently growing it back . But anyway no matter what you do and who you are please LOVE YOURSELF no matter what because you are the only you . Just remember we only have one life to live ( unless you believe in reincarnation then this statement would be invalid) so you can’t live it for anyone other than you or you’ll be very unhappy. Parents don’t feel like you’ve done anything wrong because nothing is wrong with your child be supportive and love them for them it may not be what YOU want but it is what THEY want. Never judge someone for liking what they like because remember the saying “ what’s for you may not be for someone else “ . Plus you don’t want to push your child away, they could end up in a bad situation. & please parents stop putting your children out it solves nothing nor will it change the way they are but it may change who they trust . Being on the streets is very dangerous especially with all these people out there with bad intentions. Now that I got that out this will be the ending of my lesbian chronicles. Thank you for reading.
By Raneir Schefield4 years ago in Humans
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