I'm Sorry

by Josh Napper 2 years ago in breakups

There isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish I could take it all back.

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry... you know who you are. Leroy Jethro Gibbs from NCIS once said: "Never say you're sorry. It's a sign of weakness." But girl, the team leader of one of your favorite shows is wrong. I know sorry means nothing to you anymore thanks to your past. I know I said that I am different from all those wannabes from your past who had lost way too many brain cells and hurt you. I know I said that I’ll always be there for those times you need me. I know I said, I know what I said. But here I stand, wanting to cry because I have once again let you, the most important person to me in the whole wide universe, down. I may be sad, I may be depressed, I may have made a mistake, but just to let you know, I still care about you. Saying I am sorry is an acknowledgement that you were hurt, not that I intentionally tried to hurt you. I do regret the pain you feel. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish I could take it all back. I never wanted to hurt you! I'm truly sorry.

Every day, I think about how we came all this way. The sleepless nights & the tears I cried. It's never too late to make it right. Just wanted to say I'm sorry. We hurt people unintentionally and that is an awful feeling to experience when we realize because it's the last thing we ever intended. Please believe me when I say "I'm Sorry," because I am. I didn't mean to hurt you in any way. Words will not be able to ever express how sorry I am for this, and I have profound regret and sorrow for the multitude of mistakes and harm I have caused. I'm sorry for every word I said. I'm sorry for every stupid fight I caused. I'm sorry for every argument i caused. I'm sorry for the pain I caused you. I'm sorry. I'm not perfect. I make mistakes, I hurt the ones I love now and then, but when I say sorry, I mean it with all my heart. Sorry for screwing everything up...I tend to do that a lot. I can't say just how sorry I am! If I could take back every time I screwed up, I would! But I will never take back falling for you. I'm not perfect. Sometimes I make the wrong decisions, sometimes I say the wrong things, & sometimes I blame the wrong person. But my intentions are always good. We are going to have our ups and downs, but I couldn't imagine my life without you. I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I hope you can forgive me. I don't quite know how to make things better between us, but I can start with I'M SORRY. I really am...I hope things go back to the way they used to be. I know it may take some time, but I'm gonna work hard to get it back that way. I try so hard, but I always manage to screw up. Sorry I mess up, sorry I'm not perfect, sorry I hurt you sometimes, sorry I cry sometimes because I'm afraid of losing you. The worst pain is knowing you hurt the ones you love without meaning to. Even if forgiven, it will always haunt you... because you can't forgive yourself...

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Josh Napper
Josh Napper
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