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I can't sleep in recent evenings. I'm up all night, all day. Some days I am anxious and have no idea why, and some days I find myself having a weird feeling with no shaking it and not understanding where it is resonating. The world is burning, and everyone's losing their rights and their minds because everyone has gone too far; I can't help but feel hopeless. We have become so divided in our lives and how we treat people, we've been criminalized for opinions, feelings, constructive criticism and somehow have reached the point where walking on eggshells is a good thing. The how is quite simple, yet everyone ignores it and thinks the solution is the same people causing it. We need to go about it a different way.

Self education is a great start. We have nothing if we don't have our critical thinking skills, and they know that. Take a look around you; everything has been working against us. Our school systems have been designed to cancel any original thought. The system uses numbers to grade you on a scale, inferencing the intelligent levels between students. When the government or cooperation asks for our social security, we give it away without question, our locations, emails, and phone numbers. Now it's not normal anymore if your phone doesn't automatically save your bank card information. We work so hard for something that doesn't exist: credit cards and credit scores. Your worth, pride, and dignity are scaled in simple numbers, and the only way to become better in society to that correlation is to spend money. Huge sums that the average person can't afford, yet the average person needs these goods and services to function properly. Such as a house, a car, education, even on the most fundamental level. We are groomed from the start not to think for ourselves, and that is the only way to navigate bullshit. Ignorance is bliss, but it is also killing us and making everything, what's happening now, possible. Not to mention the prevalence of narcissistic personality disorders coming from Gen X, did we ever have a chance?

We are no longer able to rely on professionals or experts. Money has taken over as well as our innate need for power. We can't go back to the "old ways" because that is still what they wanted all along. We need to be promoting tolerance and change within our culture and advocate for personal growth and thinking. People saying they learn more from personal interest, independent reading, and self travel are 100% accurate. What we see right now is all of that getting stripped away. I understand that it is getting harder and harder with the invention of cookies and the government actively monitoring everything. However, we can still gain the knowledge we need. Listen to your peers and people with first-hand experience. Grain of salt those who believe in conspiracies because being woke is not aligning with one side or the other, but understanding where everyone is coming from and being mentally prepared for anything. For all we know this could be it, and the defining factor of We The People's success vs. The Governments' success is whether or not we can successfully communicate with each other. Don't bend over backward just because someone speaking incoherently is telling you so.

I know I am ready to fight alongside everyone else, but only time will tell how that could become useful and what that will look like for me. Don't feel worried but alert, don't feel anxious but motivated, and know your rights in the state in which you live. Texas is a Lone Star State, and just because yours isn't doesn't mean there couldn't be any laws stating anything against the government and what they can and cannot do. We are all in this together, sink or swim, and don't forget that. Push aside that bystander effect and make certain of your action plan, but not with haste. It is critical, now more than ever, we come from a place of ration and reason. We can fight a common cause for the good and still be in a place of not being sucked into any side.

I can't sleep. I stay up all night worried for my brother's and sister's and feel like I can't do anything. The heavy energy and my thoughts weigh me down. I am walking the struggle-line of not wanting to be an immediate target, and not being loud enough. Only time will tell. With a heavy heart, I have already lost some friends due to the division, and that's what they want. The United States prides itself on freedom of speech because we understand what could happen when we take the time to listen to our neighbors. Especially living in a world where many realities and planes of existence exist, the brain is powerful, and it's about time we knew that. Willpower, independent research, questioning everything from realism and facts, and not allowing your emotion to dictate what is true and what isn't. Just how it's not a good idea to go to bed angry.