Worrying Over You

There were times that Lucian really wanted to smack his husband upside the head. Now was one of those times. Since Lucian had gotten pregnant over a month ago, a process that halted his transition for the next nine months, his husband had been overdoing things. Mostly household chores. Taking him to every single appointment, which was lovely but he can still drive himself.

Making all of their meals from scratch and not allowing him to cook, ever.

His husband, Cedric, wasn't allowing him to move from their bed for anything outside use of the bathroom. Or really letting him lift anything. Despite the doctor telling them both at the last visit that he could still do that. Well, at least not lift anything that was twenty or thirty pounds in weight. Lifting a tiny box or their cat would be perfectly fine. Yet, Cedric would none hear of Lucian's reasoning. No matter how much he or anyone else tried to convince his overprotective husband otherwise. Like the situation they were in right now. Holding a shoe box of old photos, Lucian repeated,"The doctor said I shouldn't lift things that are over thirty pounds."

"This box is barely a half of a pound or so, babe.",he continued. Sounding just as exasperated as he felt in that moment. Trying to not roll his eyes as his husband took the box from his hands. Putting it on the nearby countertop without a word. This was utterly ridiculous, and they both knew it. In a calmer voice, he informed,"I get you're being cautious but, this is getting silly. I'm not going to get hurt from lifting a tiny box."

"Or from doing any of my usual chores.",he added. Knowing that getting angry wouldn't solve anything. Or get to the root of the problem. Instead, Lucian asked,"Why in the world are you so Hellbent on me not doing any of the chores?"

"I just want to be absolutely sure that nothing goes wrong.",Cedric answered. Turning to his husband, he hugged him gently. Then he added,"You had a miscarriage before this. I just...I'm scared it'll happen again if I'm not more involved."

That made Lucian's heart twist slightly. He hugged his husband back with a small smile. Kissed his cheek before he muttered,"It won't happen. Last time wasn't because you weren't more involved."

"You know that. And we did enough screening and tests to know it won't happen this time.",Lucian added. Last time was a condition having to do with the baby's heart. Neither could remember it. But this baby didn't have that. They went to several doctors to confirm this. More than Lucian thought was necessary. Yet said nothing as it gave his husband peace of mind. And that mattered more to him than anything else. So, he knew he had to be gentle about this. In a soft voice, he informed,"We're having a healthy baby girl, Ced. Me lifting one box won't hurt either of us."

"I know. But I'm just so scared.",Cedric admitted. Scared that the baby would die too. Scared that Lucian would be hurt too. Scared of just losing both of them. He just didn't like not being able to do enough for either of them. Cedric rested his cheek against his husband's shoulder. Kissing it gently as he continued,"I'm scared that I'm not enough and that I'll mess up. That I'll lose both of you."

"That won't happen. You won't lose either of us.",Lucian promised. It was a legitimate worry to have. But he knew things were going to be fine. They had each other after all.