We don't talk about my birthday

How irritating is it to be singled out? How annoying is it, to be the one who always helps set up everything for everyone, and NOT have the same care and compassion yourself?

In my place of employment, I wish everyone a Happy Birthday, I am usually the one in charge of throwing their birthday parties, ordering the food, send out memes, etc. Last year was my first birthday with the company, even though I was here for almost a year at that point;

It was overlooked.

Completely, overlooked.

I had flashbacks to my previous job, were the same things happened, were I actually had to decorate my own desk, and send my own birthday meme, hell, I had to sign my own birthday card. I had one year, when I got my card I was the only one who had signed it, because the Manager forgot to send it out.

Ok fine, maybe they just didn't realize it, I had only been here almost a year.

This year, we had a HUGE employee appreciation party. I was helping the Manager pick the date. She liked the idea of one, I said, that is 2 days before my birthday, can we pick a sooner date? She replied with, well then you should like the day and be excited! I was excited for the party, even though I wanted an earlier day for the party.

Little background. Birthday's were the only day that it was about me. Every other single day of my life, I was expected to think of others, do for others, take care of others, but my birthday was about me.

The invites come out for the party, I make a joke about how people should have a birthday drink with me, since its an open free bar, it is literally no cost to anyone.

two days later, I am receiving a large angry email about how I need to NOT mention my birthday again, that people are starting to murmur about how I am going to make it about me, and not employee appreciation and I need to not be selfish and realize I am not the only one around. I only said something twice at this point, once to the manager about the date, and once as a joke. Somehow this set people off.

OK fine... I wont talk about it, but HEY I'll just take my birthday off, give myself a day, a three day weekend, be able to relax, go out for dinner, maybe take myself shopping and hit all the places that give free birthday coffees. I look at the calendar, and the Manager took it off, so now I can't. GREAT.

At the party, it was at a large casino, so we got a room. My husband said, its for my birthday, so I can at least feel a smidgen special, even if no one else makes an attempt. No mention of my birthday, No one offered a birthday drink.

HELL barely anyone came up to talk to me. I sat at a table, with my husband and mother. The manager said all of 5 words to me the hole time, and that is about the most anyone said to me.

So I am writing this on my birthday, Happy birthday to me, I have homework to do, I have to get my own lunch, and make sure I don't mention anything, cause I may make people feel uncomfortable with my own existence. even though

We dont talk about my birthday, oh no no no, we dont talk about my biiirrrthhddaayyy .... Well, it's my 35th, and their snow falling from the skkyyyyyyy (Theres snow falling from the sky)

Cashapp is $Neferitiri - if anyone wants to get me a coffee lol