This Is Me

I came out on my Tumblr Blog and only a handful of people know my sexual orientation. I always knew I wasn't straight. I first noticed in High School, I was attracted to some of the girls, some I knew, some I didn't know. I'm afraid to tell my family because I know that not all of them are supportive of the LGBTQIAP+ community. I never gave much thought to dating, male or female or anyone else, mainly because I just wasn't interested. After I left High School I kind of pushed my sexuality to the side. I started rethinking what my sexuality was. Was I Gay? Was I Bisexual? I actually thought I went both ways in my early 20s. Even though I was more attracted to women, I still liked guys.

My Dad eventually questioned my sexuality. I remember him asking me if I would ever date girls and I told him I would, that was years ago though. More recently I came out to my Dad, he asked me again if I would date girls and I was thinking, "Maybe this is the time to finally tell one of my parents." My Dad is great and isn't judgemental. He supports the LGBT+ community, so I always felt at ease whenever I was ready to come out to him and that night, I did. I think my Mom suspects that I might be Gay, but I'm not ready to tell her. She can't keep a secret and her sister, my aunt, will be the first one she tells and I'm just not ready for the whole family to know as I said. Only my 2 friends know, and now my Dad, plus everyone on Tumblr who came across the post on my page.

I'm glad to be a part of the LGBT+ community. Growing up I was always different and I felt it. I knew my attraction to other genders wasn't just a phase. I do plan on telling my family someday. I know there's no rush and I'll do it when I'm ready. At 28, I'm still kind of shocked that I'm attracted to more than one gender. I never imagined I would be a member of the LGBT+ family. I feel like I know myself more now, but I'm also still figuring out who I actually really am, like most people. I do love myself more than I did when I was a teenager and I feel more comfortable with myself. This is who I am and I won't apologize. Whether my family accepts me or not doesn't really matter to me. I can't force them to accept me for who I am. I love my family there's no doubt about that.

I don't know what my future has in store for me but one thing is for sure is that I will charge forward with my head held high. I have more than enough support in my life from my Dad, too my best friends, and of course, everyone who follows me on Tumblr. I decided to come out on Tumblr because it seemed like such a friendly place and I'm constantly seeing LGBT+ posts and content. Some people are Bisexual, some are Gay and Non-Binary. It's really great. If I remember, I came out last year during Pride Month. I haven't really told my full story yet but I will someday. Maybe no time soon but like I said I know there is no rush. I'm happy being who I am right now. I feel like a weight has been lifted off of me.