My life was almost over

First of all sorry for suddenly disappearing from the platform and leaving my story incomplete , I will be releasing the second part soon.

Let's get back to today's conversation.

So , today we will talk about the topic to which no one gives importance in my country and society. I have seen many going through depression and before few months I also used to believe that depression is something that comes with age and stress. But now I am no longer with that myth.

It's actually very hard and heartbreaking to see all your work in fact hard work being constantly ignored and all your persona , emotions and feelings of hearts , you have to suppress.

Because , you can not share, to be more precise you don't have anyone that much close to share your thoughts and emotions. But you know what hurts more , the little of the littlest you share with some one whom you thought close doesn't care about that.

As a person, I am very charming ,confident in texts, friendly, gentle , caring for others, listening to others. But few months ago My behavior and reactions to different situations started changing. I started loosing my confidence , whenever I wanted to express something I felt thirsty, my legs started shaking, sweats started flowing from head and ear became hot like fire .

In this world of billions of people and in this universe of countless stars out of nothing suddenly I started feeling alone . The quietness that used to fascinate me started eating me , the same food that used to make my mouth water started loosing it's taste. I started feeling lonely, guilty and laziness out of nothing started eating my productivity.

Then I really wanted to share my heartfelt with someone , but realized that no one is there to listen me although I was to listen everyone. This works like a sprinkle of salt and pepper to fresh wound. I tried my best to tell everyone what is happening with me but poor me failed , in fact miserably failed and making fun of me and my feelings.

After going through situation like this for nearly two weeks , I locked myself in my room , wanted to cry , scream but the tear in my eyes were like solidified and every time I tried to cry , I felt a sharp pain in my throat.

At last I decided to stand for myself and fight against all odds of my life. I woke up at 3 AM , went to my study table wrote everything that was happening with me on sticky notes. I promised myself that I will overcome all these by myself .

I realized that there is a negative impact in my life by people who makes fun of me for my short height and thin hair. I decided to avoid them and ignore them to make my life more positive.

Excessive work, academic pressure was killing me , So I decided to take a break from my busy life style. I ordered some novels to read as it was one of the things I used to enjoy most.

The very next morning I woke up with a sticky note mentioned the thing I had to do that day. I went to mountains and listened the quiet but beautiful sound of waterfall . I spent most of my time in nature's lap. Then I continued reading my novels . Slowly slowly it was getting better and I was making a comeback to my regular life but this time with more positive vibes.

Now after months I am writing this and I am very happy to share the positive results with you . Life always needs emotional support and a good listener . In my case I made writing my good partner as I was unable to share with anyone.

Hope everyone is doing great, and enjoy with your loved ones . As you have seen not everyone is lucky enough to have loved ones.

Thank you for reading.

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