Letter to a Sister

For the past twenty something years, we have been having a bond that most people do have and others wish they do have as I consider us inseparable with our brother. Even though we are a few years apart, I still see you as my peer. When we always television shows together and the different show that originally aired at the time. Being just a kid in the early 2000s, I caught on to half of what I was watching and was deeply confused about the rest. However, because you were a preteen and later became a teenager, you could relate very much. When you watched the one hour teen dramas, I could not get it, well at least a few of them. Then once I became a teenager myself, that was when I fully understood how difficult being a teen was. However, the hard part was I didn't really experienced what my classmates had, like driving, going out, dating and some type of rebellion. The last part, I think you know why.

I remember all the times you would be in your room listening to music on your CD player. I can sometimes hear the music blasting but I did not know most of the words. Even playing games during the afternoon but mostly when you were babysitting. I also remember that we would watch the education shows that come on early in the morning. I would see the sunlight shine on the wall from the window. I remember around fourth grade, when I had a crush on the new girl in class and I somehow discussed this during dinner. I know this because we were having baked ziti with cheese that night. But I was in complete agony the whole school year because of the amount of school work I received everyday. I didn't even know if she liked me or not, and I couldn't even relax a little because I was stressed out about school. I appreciated that you took me to school when I had the fifth grade senior trip. The summer after I graduated and when you graduated from high school, that was when you were out of the house, staying with someone I forgot who it was. I think you were away for a few weeks or a entire month. It was the first half of that summer and our brother and I spent those nights watching cartoons until it was time for bed.

Then sixth grade came and I experienced changes and challenges. You were about to have your first child, while I was being bullied and dealing with some unruly teachers. Then when I entered seventh grade, you then moved out because of issues related to things I can't explain. I understand why you had to leave the house, but I wish you could have stayed. Eventually you did came back home to take care of some things and later moved back in. But when you started working by the time I was in eighth grade, I started to see you less and less. Especially that one time, well one night, I was worried about when you were coming home. Finally you did came home as you were running late, because of traffic.

I never really got to experience being in a relationship during high school as you have. I haven't gotten a chance to go out as much as I am mostly at home and when I do go out, it is mostly school or doing a one time thing like the movies. But the whole ordeal taught me how to enjoy life despite me being bored in aspects. I do wish that I could go out more to get that fresh air.