Hey Mum

Hey Mum!

I know I owe you apology for the things I did as a child, but this will not go well at all.

I hope that you will understand!

Yes;

I really did throw those Jelly shoes in the sea, but they were all wrong, you see!

The kids at school were all wearing the latest trends, and I just wanted to be trendy too. I didn't have any money, so no...I really couldn't buy them myself now, could I?

You wouldn't have been pleased if I had really 'Robbed a bank!'

(Tut...Disgusting!)

Now, lets talk about this for a minute!

Do you remember that night you took us to the cinema to see some films? Yes, you ordered that curry afterwards, and boy did it blow our heads into space!

We were only little Mum, but I think we should have stuck our ages on a label on your forehead.

It took gallons of water to get through that, but we still had a good laugh, didn't we?

What about the night we stayed up playing Monopoly all night?

I can't remember who won that game, and I still swear someone cheated, but it wasn't me!

We stayed up all night playing that game, I thought it would never end; but we had laughs, and love.

These were the things that were important to me as a child.

Yes;

I know that I wasn't always a good girl, but growing up is hard you see. There was a time when you were a single parent, and you had to play mum and dad at the same time, because my father was virually absent.

Yes, we sometimes got punished hard, and in the wrong ways, but remember; you were the one who cooked, cleaned, made our beds, and you were the one who had to struggle with your own problems.

You could not have possibly understood the trauma I was going through, and I know now, it must have been hard for you to believe that someone could hurt me so bad, especially when it is someone you trusted.

But Mummy;

I beg you not to blame yourself.

Yes, I spent a long time in trauma and doing therapy, but I did not know that bad things also happened to you when I was a child.

I do know that I sulked a lot, and for that I am sorry, but this is not about that!

No!

This is the funniest sorry you will ever recieve from me,

And here are two things I am sorry for that you will laugh about:

I'm sorry I threw my Jelly shoes in the sea, but did you have to make me walk bare feet? I at least got a tan on my feet for it!

I'm sorry for sulking over 'my private light bulb!' Hey, I was a child! Weren't children supposed to sulk?

Hey Mum!

I'm glad we had this conversation, and I'm glad that we are now healing the past together.

Remember, the trauma was not your fault, and you are still a super mum to me.

Forgiveness is everything, and many children in my position cannot forgive their parents for what they did, but mum;

Here is the thing.

I can forgive you for my pain and yours, because you did not deserve that trauma that he put you through, either.

You deserve more love than I have to give, and that is alot.

Remember, I love you Mummy,

And time will heal us both.

Your wonderful daughter,

Carol.

P.S. Sometimes, forgiveness is the best language we can give our parents.