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Goat eye

I don't want to reveal your pain.

By Kayla McIntoshPublished 2 years ago • 3 min read
Goat eye
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I am pretty sure I saw Christina Etchebarren from middle school. She looked pretty good, apparently she's a cop now. I think her number is... It's not important, I know. I wish it was under better circumstances.

I saw the goat eye in her... I have seen it in myself before in the mirror. It frightened me. I feel like it is a mark of sacrifice. When the spirit recognizes it is next... It is possible it wasn't her, but I felt that energy signature. I guess I was looking into the eyes of a friend. I hadn't seen that in a while. I haven't really even considered making friends but, I dunno.. Perhaps it would be better to do that first before thinking off all this Doordash dick. I deserve a normal social life or a small social life. I don't think I think I am better than everyone else, I think I just keep myself busy to avoid rejection or trying which, despite feeling like I am 'hustlin' it is an excuse. I am just a scaredy cat.

I have a daily on my list called " Collect the leaf "

It is very hard to do daily...

The unknown caller was active at 4:36am on Oct 24th and 3:48pm. Also way back in June, but I don't remember what went on that day.

She hated when I said she was a fairy. I guess she's a human or an elf now, haha~ I am not 100% sure, which is why I wanted to confirm directly. Also, I don't know. I am curious. I do think he was handsome but, it wasn't that. It was the goat eye that made me feel like I needed to figure out what that was about.

Would she be mad that I let Leo take the medicine? I was just trying to survive. I don't know what Leo was in for. Seemed to have had a pretty good life so, I thought it was going to be a quick in and out. Should I confirm?

My mom threatened Cedar Hills to me, I don't think that is where I belong. I do, recognize I needed to go there or, at least, I survived the experience, but I don't.. really recommend it. I need to seek legal advice, but it is too confused right now, I am pretty much gaslit completely right now by all the entities around me.. Only a few are actually correct or positive right now. I figure it is the ones that are the most clear

Well, I am thinking it is the environment but, I am currently too tipsy to care. I feel like I just want to, continue doing my thing and forget everyone. I am happy in my lane, moisturized, content. I don't think I need to stay where I am here. I am probably going to head out once I am done writing.

Eh, Johan decided not to come but I don't blame him, I know it was a long shot, and I guess it would be better that he doesn't come. Maybe this is my answer. I should've gone and found Jacob again. He looked so empathetic. I just wanted to give him chocolate as a thank you. Asians love chocolate.

I bought some Krispy Kreme's for Jimmy's parents so, I guess that is ok.

I suddenly smell popcorn. I am sure that Scorpio is around.

Bruh, I dunno. I need to leave as soon as I get done with this article. I am enjoying the tarot card reading live i am watching. I think I'll head out at 10pm tonight.

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Kayla McIntosh

Personal tell-all pieces: Word of the Day and Jail Journal. Secret poet on the side. ( I don't use Ai to write any posts, everything is done manually. )

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    Written by Kayla McIntosh