Yissel m delhoyo
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Loving Him
To the outside world it was just a simple attachment. Boy meets girl, boy and girl become friends, boy and girl catch feelings, boy and girl lose feelings. The same old drawn out story. But to me it was much bigger than that. You see for years I spent my time alone wondering if I was even capable of love anymore. I had crushes, yes but I never really thought I could find myself actually loving someone. I kept things inside in order not to seem sad and desperate. I wanted people to believe I didn’t care about finding love. I hated the world, and hated the thought of having to settle down in some mediocre life with someone just to not be alone. And then I convinced myself that I was actually better off alone. Love seemed like a scam.
By Yissel m delhoyo2 years ago in Confessions
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I once knew a girl who walked as if she were dancing on clouds. Every ounce of her was bright and beautiful. Not once did she have a problem with anyone… ever. She lived across the street from me, as children we would play together but as time went by our paths went separate ways. I never really knew what she did, but I was quite certain she was wasting her time. Her lifestyle seemed to so frivolous, she never seemed to focus her time and energy on anything deemed important. I remember spending my time at the library watching the world go by as I tried to keep my grades at a 4.0 gpa average, doing just what I was told to do by every adult I knew while she... didn't. And for the longest time during my highschool years I hated her and her carefree attitude. I remember watching her in school floating through the halls with no care in the world. I would have never admitted it then but I was jealous. My life was so full of stress trying to stay at the standards everyone held against me. I'd stand in the mirror and watch this darkness loom over my shoulders slowly consuming my body meanwhile across the street there she was this girl shining brightly and enjoying every second of her life... Every inch of my being wanted to find something wrong with her. I wanted to know that she wasn't as perfect as she seemed but from where I was standing... She was perfect.
By Yissel m delhoyo3 years ago in Humans