27. England. Poet. I have Bipolar, BPD & Anxiety. I’ve been writing since I was 18 as an outlet for my mental health.
I also have a Ko-Fi with more of my work: https://ko-fi.com/erin
I Shouldn’t Have Survived.
I shouldn't have survived; I wasn't meant to reach... * I've seen the worst life has to offer, yet still I've gone on.
The Mysterious Package.
I woke up to the sound of monitors beeping and a shattering pain in my head. I could barely open my eyes, they felt so heavy, my body felt weak. I couldn’t remember the events of last night or how I got here. Why am I here? I thought to myself. What happened to me?
Saved By Chocolate Cake
Today started just like any other day for Sam, as she got up and tried to force herself into the shower before work. It was raining outside, pouring it down but what else could be expected on a Winter’s day in England. Typical British weather, it’d likely not let up anytime soon she thought as she reached for her thick winter coat and an umbrella.
Run Boy, Run.
Tobias woke to find himself chained, in what looked like a very old rundown barn. There hadn’t been any animals here in a long time, rust had set in on the butchers tools and the bright red paint was chipped. He found himself scrambling to piece together the events of the night before. Hoping to find some clue to how he ended up here, and more importantly who had chained him up like an animal.
Just one of the many symptoms experienced by people with Borderline Personaltity Disorder. I would like to share a link that explains in more detail exactly what ‘splitting’ is and what it is like for the person going through it. I hope it explains better why people with BPD exhibit these behaviours and provides a greater insight in how to best help someone during an epsiode.
A lot of my poetry is personal to me and documents my ups and downs with mental illness. Sometimes poetry can be cathartic and it’s always been there for me to utilise as a tool to vent everything out that I cannot speak. When I get overwhelmed I can sit and write it all out and suddenly those emotions become less intense, less painful.
Weed Amongst The Roses.
I see the bountiful garden, full of colourful roses, forget me nots, apple trees, what a beautiful scene. Flourishing in the garden
Beauty From Pain.
This song is quite a sad song but with a hopeful message. When I was struggling, before I was diagnosed with Bipolar and Borderline Personality Disorder, this song helped me a lot. Actually the artist Superchick, a lot of her songs helped me. You may find the song sad and potentially upsetting dependent on your current state of mind. There’s nothing graphic or openingly triggering in the song itself. It is talking about someone going through depression and the hope that things will get better, but you may want to avoid it if you’re currently really struggling with these thoughts.