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By Kellie Dougherty
March 2020, I wasnβt doing anything outrageous- I wasnβt even doing something important to the standards of modern society. Aside from attempting to start my own business entitled βKellieβs MixingPotβ and trying to study for my GED, My life was standard, Mundane and maybe even boring- I had made a best friend, But how does that matter when everything you know and will ever know has been turned upside down by a virus.
I am part of a small few who cannot and most likely will not ever get a check from the government during the COVID-19 pandemic. I am also one of those few people who are born close enough to the end and the beginning of the school year- Enough so that people arenβt actually sure what grade Iβm supposed to be in.
2002, A magic number- The product of fear and love after 9/11 just like millions of other kids born in the years after me. The biggest problem is being a minor during the pandemic- Iβm a drop out, Something Iβm not ashamed of, and I never will be- I did what I had to do to survive and Iβm happy I did- The problem with my decision is while everyone I knew was getting ready for prom, I was trying to figure out how to continue my life.
When your parents claim you on government bills, You are unfortunately doomed to never receive the pretty checks that come with living in our nation. Now, Imagine You have a sometimes crippling mental disorder, Everyone you know and love just so βhappenβ to be running out of money and you are unemployed.
So think- Just for a moment about the struggle of starting your own business on a normal unemployed budget and stress level. Add Covid, The fact that thousands of people are rushing to Social security to file sometimes βFalse claimsβ and now someone like me doesnβt even get a chance to start their business before its over.
Im still the type of person who fights tooth and nail for my wants and dreams- Iβm still the person who will scream at the top of her lungs and parade around a sign for what I feel is right. However Iβm still the person who wants to have a life to live some day and if that means I have to type a mile a minute just to properly say my peace, Then so be it.
Iβd like for someone out there to comment- To call- To tell me how its right? How that is okay, How this βGreat Nationβ has helped me succeed? Because last I checked, I have a disability that leaves me nearly incoherent, Unable to do anything but stew in my thoughts for hours if not days- And then if Iβm lucky it will only take me βmere weeksβ to recover.
Sometimes I have bouts of uncontrollable rage that I canβt escape from, Sometimes its so bad that I black out and the people Iβve hurt had to tell me what happened. On the off chance it isnβt rage and its elation- And Iβm so happy I could very well be on cloud nine- But I know Iβm going to crash and when I do- I have no idea how Iβll react.
I'm on several different medications- Not including vitamins for endorphins and yet all I seem to get from them are side effects and pain. An uncontrollable amount of anxiety and sometimes even sadness.
I believe everyone deserves a chance at greatness- A chance to follow your dreams. What happens when the chasing of the American dream comes down to simply money.
Something that is just a number on a computer, A piece of metal or paper- It holds so much more weight than people realize. A simple dollar could be the difference between life and death, Between starvation and living to another day.
When I was starting my business, All I could find on the internet was different businesses to funnel my business to. For my hard work to put money in their pockets. Shopify, Etsy, GoDaddy, Square- They all say they want to help you, But how can you possibly start a business with no money to put into it.
The answer to the American dream is anything but simple, Youβd need millions of green, Maybe less dreams.
Although I find that this is a harsh reality, Iβm still going to push forward with everything I have. Small steps, Setting aside little goals and maybe Iβll overcome the large odds.
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