I Was Robbed In Tower City

I was robbed yesterday morning at 5:00 am on the dote apparently in the investigation Detective Don has done. I was craving a banana nut muffin, and coca cola. When I think about a government section Social Worker job something I am degree seeking my thoughts are naive. I dreaded writing this article because it feels like I am exposing feelings I don't know if I'm ready to share. I wish I could forget this I really do. I thought by speaking to my mother in-law it would help me feel not so victimized it was opposite. Something else to deal with in therapy I should share the city of Cleveland for my emotional scars. But what would that do? I thought I wanted justice. But what would that do? I want my life back I want to not feel like a victim. I want to stop feeling like shit.

The thief didn't just take away my wallet he took away my dignity, and made me feel I don't matter. I'm worth nothing I would rather take from you then care. I posted on my experience on YouTube someone left me a comment "your ignorant."

I feel like I'm just done with the disrespect, and since Cleveland is a lawless, and justice lacking city I want to to protect myself. I found a taser on Amazon a green one for 9.99. I purchased it, then cancelled it. Just wasn't in the budget this month.

I have extreme PTSD I wonder what is the next step to extreme PTSD hype PTSD. It's exhausting feeling like this. Forcing myself to write this words isn't easy to do. I'm feeling so angry, I wish I could stop feeling like I have no control, powerless.

Forcing words out it's easy for me, every time I'm out of my apartment I'm hyper vigilant. I'm scared and worse of all sometimes I think people can smell fear.

What makes things hard? I don't know how my husband feels about all this. I'm in a bad state of mind. Feel like I don't see anything clearly.

I feel upset that in my society my voice doesn't matter. When I live in a city that's pretty much all ghetto I learned something very power a voice isn't the most powerful. If no one cares then I will make someone else care.

I just wonder if there are different versations of bullying. If so I have witnessed it all. I have been robbed two against one isn't fair. I have been bullied last semester for staying quiet. I been called out on streets not even hearing them because I had my Bluetooth in my hears. It's scary for me to speak up because my voice isn't heard. It's an honest emotion to feel frozen.

Feeling this emotion is like freezing in fear, it's almost like being petrified. Everything moves in slow motion, I knew it's going to happen. The fear of not knowing if I'm going to survive, or is this a joke.

I just don't know how to move past this. I feel so angry right now, partly because I'm in the student Cafeteria and trying to ignore Katherine who keeps using the term Scholarship kid. I feel annoyed but ignoring her is the best thing to do.

I just want to be remember who I am. I feel like a lame horse who has broken after being whipped into submission. I just don't know I want to feel powerful again. But right now I'm just going through the motions. I wish sometimes I wasn't Emily Aurelien because I don't feel powerful right now. I know this is repetitive but I feel like this.

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Emily's life has never been easy, not until recently when her whole world changed she became free. She lost so much but gained so much in the end. Emily has had so many struggles in life, but somehow everything ends up going as it should. She is happily married to her husband living a happy life, everything is changing constantly in her life yet one thing never has faded her love for writing. Nothing has been easy then again the hard lessons never are.

She lost everything when it came to her family but she couldn't be a part of that life. So she forged her own path, though never easy she never gives.

Emily was employed at a hotel where she was a laundry girl, and never got to work the front desk as promised. She writes full time, while going to school full-time studying social work. Right now she is currently working as a waitress at Yours Truly in Cleveland.

As time went on, all the times she was told she couldn't hold down a job, all of them saying that she proved them wrong. She proved them wrong, but for herself and no one else.

Right now she is working on several projects.

Emily is an animal lover, and enjoys a good book. She is addicted to coffee and Chai Lattes when she is in St. Lucia on vacations she really enjoys Rituals Coffee House Chai Lattes.

She wants her Readers to know that she has a good life, and her life doesn't revolve around writing 100% of the time.

As time went on she found herself finally with her husband. She is working on her latest business ventures lately succeeding quit nicely. Emily is known for writing Unrequited Love A Collection of Short Stories and many more works.

She works on her blogging, and YouTube Channel Content.

Just recently she is taking a break from writing and slowly working her way into it. She has been experiencing some spots of depression while her husband has been helping her through this the struggles she faces are real.