The Borderline of Mental Illness No One Is Talking About

For as long as I can remember I have had feelings of sadness, separation, anxiousness, and just feeling too God damn overwhelmed with being alive. Hear me out. I am not branded with a mental illness nor am I an ambassador for my friends with mental illnesses. But I can't help feel like I am almost always sad or pretending not to be.

Consider it, 'borderline mentally unstable.'

Mental illness is everywhere. Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, even Netflix has its own controversial series letting us all now (like we already didn't) what it feels like to be sad. HELLO. We are a generation of socialists. We eat, we tweet. If you don't have a plethora of group chats in which you occasionally expose each others darkest secrets for banter, you my friend are lying. But why is it still such a taboo? As we have pioneered for the last 20 years to make mental illness heard, we have somehow lost ourselves along the way and instead separated ourselves more than ever.

I am not DEPRESSED, I am just SAD. Ermm... Is there difference?

We need to stop telling ourselves people with mental illnesses hibernate through the seasons, and if you do go out and socialise you clearly can't be distressed.

It's outdated.

Now, let me ask you this. Are you mentally unstable (American Horror Story: Asylum-worthy)? Or have you just been told throughout your existence that being sad is wrong, you should never cry and if you do so more than a normal human being you are clinically inclined to seek professional help? If it's the latter, me too.

Sadness, anxiousness, self doubt etc. are all neurological patterns everyone possesses. EVERYONE. To be told it is abnormal to experience these feelings is ignorance at its finest. I agree that no one should feel pain, physical or mental, and it is human nature to empathize with someone in pain and to relinquish them of it immediately. But you're only human, and what a wonderful human you are.

So, what do we do? We start teaching each other to understand the karmatic way of thinking. Happiness is normal, sadness is normal. Admit it. Talk about it.

Please don't get me wrong. I am an advocate for psychiatrists and medical solutions to mental health issues. But, can we please stop telling people that these are the only solutions to mental pain? Don't be afraid to cry, then laugh, then cry some more. Don't be afraid to feel like you don't have the slightest f**king idea what's going on; maybe you never have. Do any of us?

Lastly (as I'm seriously hoping by now some of you feel the same way as I do), remember who you are. You do not need to be fixed. You do not need to be a happy-go-lucky ray of f**king sunshine. You are YOU. You are beautifully and carefully created (don't worry, this won't end with the lord's prayer). Feel everything as it's meant to be felt. Your are human and that is a gift in itself. Be in the moment.

What is normal anyway? – M

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