Bipolar disorder; understanding the highs, the lows and the in between.
Bipolar Disorder vs Depression
Both bipolar disorder and depression are serious mental illnesses that can be crushing and even life-changing. Since many people with bipolar disorder were first diagnosed with depression before they received their correct diagnoses as well as the fact that bipolar disorder was once called bipolar depressive disorder; one can be left to wonder which one is worse.
"Bipolar is Just an Excuse"
If you read that in an obnoxious and snarky voice, chances are you agree with me when I say that bipolar disorder is very real and not an excuse at all. I feel as if people that claim that it’s an excuse are either ignorant or have had negative experiences with people that aren’t even suffering from this illness.
Five Things I Learned From a Bipolar Relationship
My first serious relationship was with a person who had bipolar disorder. At the beginning, she had yet to be diagnosed, but at the constant urging of me and other people, she finally sought help. She was diagnosed, and to be honest I don't remember much of what happened after that. We broke up soon after, but I'll spare the details. This was before I had been diagnosed, so for most of the relationship, there were two rather explosive bipolar people trying to have a normal life.
life love and chronic conditions
when you suffer daily and risk hospital everyday all you can do is smile In may 2017 i was put in intensive care after it looked like id had acid thrown in my face and it had swollen beyond recognition, And omg the pain was unreal and i came very close to not being here anymore i had a severe reaction to something and to this day we dont know what anyway my gp had given me steroids thinking it was allergy but it turned out to be a super infection and as a result my immune system was killed off so i had to be given several strong medications to counter act the damage . I was in such a dark place then as i looked like a freak and lost my lovely thick long hair due to the infection and my bipolar meant i thought everyone was staring and laughing at me when i ventured out of my sole room . 8 months on from then im still not healed but alot better i am covered in scars physically and emotionally . I have now been diagnosed with pemphigus vulgarias a very rare immune condition where it attacks your skin thinking its a threat which was triggered by my reaction in may so now i am constantly breaking out in very painful blisters that scab over and are hard to heal i am now at great risk of serious infection etc and i refuse to live life worrying so i just keep smiling and living life the best i can i am about to start treatment which involves killing my immune system so il be at even greater risk of serious issues and more hospitals .
In Case You Don't Understand
In case you don't understand, some things are out of my control. I equate having bipolar disorder to being forced to split time between being stuck in a hurricane and stuck in a dark cave.
How I Got Diagnosed With Bipolar
The first time I ever saw a counsellor I was 8-years-old. My mother and father had recently gotten divorced and she thought it was a good idea for me to work through whatever hidden and not quite understood 8-year-old emotions I had. She, having come from a long line of nut jobs, was never one to ignore possible emotional damage. For me, this is merely what set the scene. I was just a kid. I had only barely developed a sense of self, let alone the ability to quantify my own feelings, and I was still light years away from seeing the far reaching consequences of what I felt moment to moment. Counselling was a great idea, and I’m proud that I have the kind of mother who is open to that sort of thing when so many are not. But, like I have said, my very green youth left me feeling like I was the same as everyone else. Ugly and unpopular, but on the same playing field as everyone else my age.
5 Things Bipolar People Want You To Know
It’s impossible to have any sort of relationship with someone who has bipolar disorder. One minute they’re up; the next minute they’re down. They’re volatile. They are easily triggered, dangerous, and dependent on drugs. Or so it might seem.
The 6 Faces of Bipolar Disorder
Admittedly, bipolar disorder can be a pretty confusing disease. Having displayed symptoms since toddlerhood, I still don't understand everything. One of the most important things I have learned about my disease is how there are more than two sides to the coin. In fact, there are at the very least six distinct faces; six freely flowing phases. Of course, there are other things that are important too, but let's start here.
Bipolar, Perseverance, and What You Should Realize
The craziest idea I ever had was that someday I would be a famous actress, attending galas and awards ceremonies, collecting swag bags and hanging with the who’s who of Hollywood. I was the star of the play, two years running. Stage after stage, performance after performance, dressing up to watch The Oscars because I knew that I had to practice my acceptance speech before I got to the real thing. I looked for agents, went to auditions, read books, and memorized monologues. At drama club, I was bigger than life, and everyone in the room knew exactly where I wanted to be; Center stage.
Living With BPD
Eighteen years of intense mood swings, emotional breakdowns, and euphoria like this world has never seen: a brief synopsis of my life story. If you're reading this, I'm sure BPD (bipolar disorder) affects you - or has affected you - in some way. For some of you, it fluctuates more intensely than others. I, myself, experience intense fluctuations, so I want to use this a way of encouraging others to not only educate themselves on what BPD is and does, but also on how to get the necessary help. I've tried these things myself, and found that they work much better than I anticipated.
Swimming in a Sea of Sorrow
Growing up I always knew my life was a little different from everybody else. My clothes were from the salvation army, my hair was in the same afro puff every single day of school, and my mom had bipolar disorder. Life wasn't always easy as a kid, but it also wasn't always hard. I had a mother who loved me dearly and grandparents that helped keep us afloat. It wasn't until I was in my third year of college that I finally realized, or let myself realize, that I was suffering from depression.
"...Now, and forever more, you will be bipolar." That's how he let me know of my diagnosis. This man I had never seen before just changed my life, forever.