Interlude
I wrote this months ago I am now safe and happy I had no outlet other than to write!
So i am writing this on my iPhone 11 notes because I had to pawn my laptop to survive til payday but I’m bout to get it out lol! Anyway I just fought for my life I’m traumatized I want to go into detail but I feel like it’s snitching so we gonna pretend this is fiction and names and locations are changed to protect my “ ex husband or whatever the fuck he is I hope he alive he’s not answering I can’t go check on him cuz I fought for my life to leave! How can I be so concerned about someone who almost killed me but truth be told I know the real him he just schizophrenic or have demons on him idk which one but I’m drained i pray for him to be ok once I find that out I will be able to move on. So we just gonna start from the beginning! I need to go Into every detail for you to understand! I have to get this out so I can free myself from him .
Chapter 1
I moved to ga with a laptop and bag with two outfits and makeup
And hygiene products!
5 months pregnant living in a boarding house room in a new state all by myself. My baby dad left here after he seen me drunk on New Years and thought I was disrespectful. The crazy thing is I believe almost 100 percent I got pregnant on that day before I went crazy on him! He just didn’t like me for real but I loved me some him lol. So handsome he would hold my face and admire me no man has ever done that . He would say by the way we had sex that ima get pregnant but At that time I was 32 years old with one ovary almost impossible to get pregnant so I didn’t think it was possible. Long story short I got pregnant and never seen him again ! This story is about my ex husband not my baby father I know crazy right ?
(Change of subject I’m literally sulking mourning and loosing my mind because I don’t know if he’s ok and I can’t go check til morning cuz my lights on car messed up ! I pray for the best !)
Back to the start! I was in my room waiting for Lyft to come take me to doctors appointment for six months pregnancy check up. A decent looking man with a pink polo collared shirt and fresh hair cut pulled up in a blue Ford F-150. It washh be love at first sight . He was such a gentleman open the door for me anyway he dropped me off and I thought to myself why didn’t he ask for my number ? But I just shrugged it off until next time when i seen him again then again until finally I ask him for his number so I can pay him for rides to go to work. It was innocent even tho I had a slight crush . He started taking me to work and everything was fine he was nice and I liked him a little .
I’m literally hysterical I prayed about it and put it in Gods hands !!! As long as he’s alive i will be happy I literally will free myself from him it’s too much pain! Ima let him work on himself as I do the same but we probably will not be together again if it’s any amount of toxic !! Plus God literally told me no we cannot be together . Idk what kind of lesson I’m Gonna learn maybe none maybe he was just here for a season I have to let him go I don’t want this pain anymore .
This book is not to offend anybody with mental illness.
Most relationships they argue about petty stuff, cheating money u know the norm. In my relationship literally gets physical over stuff that is not real whatsoever. Like he question every single thing I do It’s so painful to watch him be destroyed mentally. No type of treatment for his illnes because he doesn’t believe anything is wrong with him. I been begging him to get help !! For instance he he like did u touch the door knob I
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