Zombies

Awaken

You live life seeing a person for who you think they are or should be- when in fact you have no idea who you’re seeping beside, passing on the street, meeting in the grocery market, hell even babysitting your kids at this very moment.

Think about it. Let that soak in for a few minutes.

I never understood my mother until after she had passed when I found out I have the same mental illnesses she had I finally understood her anxiety screaming at us, her tears, agony, puling guns her severe manic depression, sadness, emptiness I understand it all now. I deal with this daily; now have for over 2 decades.

It is exceedingly difficult to make through each and every day with the sadness inside that if I could talk to her now I would hug her tell her I Love her so tremendously much that it sometimes takes the air out of my lungs. I miss her smiling face every single second of every single day for these last 8 years.

I wipe away the tears breathe in and out and remember I am still alive to push away the suicidal and sad thoughts. Life must be lived, not viewed from the sidelines. I’ve lost so many people in my life from family pets to friends and carried an unbearable burden the majority of my life until I chose to break free and LOVE!!! I'm free - I'm forgiven and I have forgiven. I’m finally living…. I'm truly free - weightless :)

What are you waiting on???

Tahnee Cole