You Wanted to Know
So here...
DISCLAIMER: Often when people suffer through abusive childhoods, they end up in abusive marriages and relationships because they did not have good role models and do not know what a healthy relationship looks like. This poem is a bit brutal, but I have wanted to release this energy. It can be a little triggering... As humans, we all have dark thoughts; the key is not acting on them.
Married for 15 years,
You once sked me why
I never wrote a song for you
Or a poem or anything at all about you
Not even a simple haiku
But the words I always wanted to say
Were words that would be more cruel
Than the mocking and belittlement
You did of my dreams, aspirations, and desires
You did everything you could to crush my soul
And destroy my words
But, baby, you didn’t succeed
So, here’s your little poem
I’m sorry it’s not pretty
But all I’ve wanted to say to you
For such a long time is…
Baby, why don’t you just die?
Why don’t you just die?
And if you find God doesn’t want you
And the Devil won’t have you
Just go far away from me
Leave me be
Like all men who have no goals,
No dreams
No hopes or aspirations
You lashed out at others who
Dared to dream
When you were unable to
Muster within yourself something
So natural and basic as hope
Instead you mocked my dreams
You belittled my writing
You shamed my desires
Because you never had any
You tried to make me feel worthless
But now, I’m woke, and living,
And all I have to say is…
Baby, why don’t you just die?
Why don’t you just die?
And if you find God doesn’t want you
And the Devil won’t have you
Just go far away from me
Leave me be
At one time I loved you so much
I would have given up all my dreams
I would have given you ever penny I earned
To help you attain your potential
Which you had so much of
But you are an empty shell
Hollowed out by your mother’s
Screeching indifference
Leaving you
With a resentment as
Toxic and aggressive as cancer
Pumping through your heart
Using others to pave your way
So you can smile sweetly with such charm
While you take all you can get from others
Baby, why don’t you just die?
Why don’t you just die?
And if you find God doesn’t want you
And the Devil won’t have you
Just go far away from me
Leave me be
Why don’t you just die?
Why don’t you just die?
- Julie O'Hara 2023
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