You're NOT Excused
It Doesn't Make It Okay
You said you loved me
You told me how you cared
We were in the same room
But you were still not there
You invited me in
Pulled me in close
Then pushed me away
To keep me on my toes
You'd say nice things
Whisper in my ear
Made me feel safe
And kept me in fear
How could I live without you there?
Would I be okay?
Would I be alone?
Could I survive
Without you home?
We'd laugh; I'd cry
Scream and fight
Like riding a roller coaster
Night after night
I wish I had seen it sooner
Took me too long to learn
Playing with fire
I was sure to get burned
I started to gain distance
A little more clarity
You were really there for you
When you were there for me
You made me feel special
Charmed your way in
What appeared as a smile
Was really a devilish grin
You made me fall for you
And I started to feel
"Is this really happening?
Is this really real?"
You showered me with gifts,
Good deeds, and adoration
All to keep me
Distracted from the situation
You would make me upset
Make me feel small
Then turn it around as if
You'd said nothing at all
You would use it against me
Hold it over my head
But if I brought it back up
That's not what you said
You played mind games
Infected my head
All to keep me coming
Back into your bed
Our distance grew in miles
Farther and farther apart
Which unknowingly loosened
The knife left in my heart
My heart still aches
Scars are still raw
Still tossing and turning
Hardly sleeping at all
It replays in my mind
Everything you've said
All the good you've done
Doesn't excuse the bad
About the Creator
A_Skeleton_Speaks
Formerly: Introducing Poetry
Writing allows me to release
All that holds me
Hope you enjoy the journey with me on a path to healing and growth!
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