You Could Never

Fear is deep within my soul,

something you would have never known,

broken relations,

no communication,

it’s been such a struggle to reveal,

all my feelings,

dried up tears,

emotional outburst,

all the hurt,

and so much pain.

I wish to let this feeling go,

this feeling of fear so I can show,

the real Vannah,

whose been too dope,

whose been too scared to reveal her inner most,

her thoughts,

her struggles,

her passion,

her love,

the longing for something that never was,

when your in it your blind,

to lies,

to deceit,

to illusions,

no conclusion,

but I still defeat.

I’m stronger now, so no more tripping,

it was a struggle but I’ll admit it,

I am a force to be reckoned with,

no longer will I sit back and take your shit,

cause I’m a queen and I wont forget,

my god has blessed you with my presence,

you had to forget about our dealings,

you will never find the pressure I was giving,

a women whose aura was forbidden,

I was the escape to your desires,

Ohhh I almost lost that fire,

I lost myself to fit your persona,

and you lost me, boy you could never!