You

I saw you for the first time.

You were different.

You weren’t the cutest nor the ugliest.

But, you were something.

You smile. I smile.

You laugh. I smiled more.

You look at me… I feel something.

You said things you shouldn’t.

We were a secret.

We did things we shouldn’t have.

You made me feel something I never felt.

You made me laugh.

You made me smile.

You said the right things.

Made me forget my commitment issues.

You were different, and I never knew why.

We snuck around and no one knew.

We hugged.

We kissed.

And more.

You made me feel something.

I didn’t know what it was, but I liked it.

That feeling I soon found out to be love.

Yes love.

The things you said and did.

Made me fall harder than before.

That’s when you said those three words,

That I never knew would affect me forever.

Those words.

Those three words.

I love you.

That’s what he said.

My heart skipped a beat in my chest at that moment.

I smiled. Not just a normal one. This smile was different than the others.

Then I typed those three words back.

I love you.

He said I was amazing.

He said I was beautiful.

He said I was perfect.

He said he loved me.

We knew what were doing was wrong.

But we didn’t care.

I was in love and couldn’t help it.

Then all that went away as fast as it came.

I will never forget that night.

The night I cried.

Cried like I never have before.

For hours.

The tears just kept coming and coming.

That was the worst night of my life.

I was broken.

Heartbroken to be more correct.

I couldn’t sleep for days.

I tried and tried to message you.

But, you ignored.

You blocked.

I was confused.

I was played.

I was mad.

But I still loved you.

I didn’t know why,

Even after what you did.

I laid awake most nights with our memories,

Replaying in my head.

The crying would begin again.

I wonder,

Why was I so stupid.

Maybe if I was prettier, he would love me forever?

I ask myself that every day.

I miss him.

I won't lie.

I miss his hugs.

His kisses.

The way he could always make me smile.

I’ll never forget.

But all I can say is,

I’m sorry……