Yet

Do you love me?

I can't see,
between the false securities
and all these things
that rattle through my mind
every day.

And every time I think
that there's something more
to whatever is going on
right now with you and I,

I find myself left blindsided.

Do you see me?
Do you want to be with me,
near me?
Do you want to hear me
or do you fear me?

Are you scared of what could be
if you spent some time with me?

I know that we could fall in love.
But sometimes love
just isn't enough.

I don't know where to go from here.
The future isn't clear
in any way, or shape, or form.

I want so much to be the one,
and for you to be my person,
but there's so much standing in the way.

And each and every day that goes by
feels further and further
from even being able to try
to turn this into something it's not.

I don't know what the plot
of this romantic story is.

Will she find the knight
who sweeps her off her feet,
or will she be defeated?

And in my dreams
is the only place I find you,
so true.

Some days I just want to let go
and move on
and forget this connection
that we have.

But I can't let go,
not yet.