Wrecked 💥🚙😥

I worked so hard to get to this moment I had excitement bursting through my body with enjoyment.

“I got me a NEW CAR! It’s not the one I wanted, but the one I needed” Is what I said and thought.

I never realized the world of driving could almost make my heart stop.

Happiness turned to sadness like a snap of a finger.

Fear, weary, and pain now lingers.

Wondering what I did wrong or a better route I could’ve went drove me insane at night after I first got hit.

“But it wasn’t my fault, I did everything right” are the words I kept saying over and over in my head that night.

I didn’t want to ask Yahweh “Why”? Because I knew that wasn’t right

But I just couldn’t fathom what lesson I was supposed to learn from this night.

“Am I Supposed to be working this job?” “Is this the route I should’ve taken?” “Was there a Stop sign I missed and am I the one mistaken?”

The memories kept playing on repeat in my head like an annoying show.

I told myself I would move forward and just let it go.

As I’m feeling better and comfortable about the situation, a hit from behind me knocks out all my concentration.

My heart dropped to my feet and I was completely in shock by the U-Haul truck that came crashing through my thoughts.

My adrenaline and emotions were high, I was rushing to get to work and had to think on the fly.

My first instinct was to check my car and not myself, which is ironic since I always say my health is my wealth.

Once I saw the car was fine, I didn’t waste anymore time.

I put the pedal to metal to get to work like my life was in the line. Not realizing if that hit had of been harder, I could’ve died.

As the day goes on, I’m in relief but my back and wrist were in disbelief.

The pain grew sore and stronger by the hour, I put on a brave face for work to avoid the chatter.

As soon as I got home, I collapsed in the bed.

I felt stupid and defeated for not thinking with my head.

Still never asked “Why?” Because it would only make things worse.

I know my car is important and that the condition should be checked, but I promise to myself I’m gonna put my health first and think with my head the next time I get wrecked.