Wonder What May

I often - - - wonder what-may have been -

if decisions, - small and - - had been different. -

would have made - difference - - course of my life, - -

did this, did -, said - said that, instead of - - I took.

Life is -, not always, by -e big and - moments,

but - smaller, - and seemingly - choices we - make,

every - day.

While the choice of - or toast, - or tea

may not decide whether you are

a - or a hooker of no real identity

working the red-light district

in a - town that no-one remembers the - of,

they might?

There is no way of - knowing which - decisions

will - ones that lead you

on a path you never - wanted to go on,

instead of the one that leads you to the future you hoped for.

That is why - freedom of -, that open-endedness is a - and a curse.

Taking a - and - approach to every - you - make,

may provide - - any number of -, out of this world, -,

but

may also bring you crashing down to earth like a - on fire.

Taking a - approach to every decision,

whether it's bath or -, - or brunette,

long - or short -, jeans or shorts,

- or maim, love or hate,

could mean you avoid all the pitfalls of living dangerously,

but leave you - and flat.

Trusting - over mind, or mind over -, is never a - plan-, -.

You may feel - duty to give up the - you want - for t- people you love,

but it may still be - wrong -, it may still take you down -,

that path of regret and misery.

if your decision, - sacrifice is met with whole-hearted devotion, trust and appreciation, -

then you may find - joy in - honour of keeping - vows,

- taking the path of most resistance, of dark days and no holidays,

when - fighting to survive and doing what's right.

Do you really want to wear - underwear?

functional or - -

the - ones make you feel like a -, the - ones leave room -, for a less restrained -.

Do you sweat over the - things and - worry about the - things,

the - over the trivial or do you look at each decision,

like each minute of - as being part of something -?

Of course, -n the impetus many of us believe we have to society, to people.

Our decisions are never - our own if - a moment we contemplate our - world.

Even - underwear, of clothing, of employment, is shaped by unsaid - unconscious,

subconscious messages - through our brains and hearts.

Can we -break free from these constraints -

think about what is best- as individuals or

does that - lead us to a paradise of our making or simply make it easier for us to fall -.

Think deeply about the -

...think deeply about that - in -...think deeply about whether to - or not,

whether to recycle or -,

whether to take the dark and quick - or the one that is brightly - and takes - more.

Think deeply took about how you said - you said to - you - or made - they've ever been.

Is that the - you wanted, or did you hope for - else? Hope is not - control...but - can guide, surely?

fold or -, intercourse or -, interject or -n silent,

- or right, up or -, in - out, all about, - or kiss,

cry or -, scream or -, the joys and the-, the misery and loathing,

the time it takes to boil - a lover's aching heart, are all we are. Are we not?

When decisions - based on love,

real love, deep love,

forgiving, downplaying, bearing, gut-wrenching, hard to feel alone, love,

- are not simply made on the turn of a - or the throw of a -.

So…when you choose the - over the -,

because of love,

or - that is quick and leads you past that potential - of your life

instead of the long -, when you let love guide everything, even the most insignificant and unassuming -,

can you trust -?

No. But, that's really the point, isn't it?

You can - and - everything and still be -, or you can fly by the seat of your tightie-whities and still fail upwards.

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Thanks for reading!

Author's Notes: This is another attempt at blackout poetry. I wrote a big piece ages ago and then edited it, removing stuff, and replacing it with dashes to make it more open to interpretation. I have thought and thought and thought about putting it out there, but always held back. Until now.