Why I Left All The Work Undone
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Art and creation cost me ever more in soul,
they drain my vital cache by the barrel full.
Once emptied, I retreat from paint and brush,
run from the words that haunt me in the hush,
hold still the tongue that whispers when I sleep,
and close those roamless eyes through which I seep.
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Once eyelids clash I find I'm young again,
but there's nothing in the dark worth ink and pen.
I try to conjure up my favorite things,
but find my little hands lack royal rings,
so shadows hobble forth and laugh at me,
and taunt me with a mocking bended knee.
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I run to neverwhere, but find I'm stuck in tar,
of course, my feet could never take me far.
I launch my heart above the grasping ground,
build a country of rose tints in which I'm crowned,
dream within my dream of fondest things,
ponder wherein from such wonder springs.
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But then a hammer strikes me in the chest,
a stinging doubt - the shadow of my best.
It lingers now, and never ever leaves.
I trudge with its dark water in my greaves,
and sing again, and write, and paint the beast
that lurks within. His shadow never ceased.
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No matter what I make, I can dream more,
the moon is always judging, the silvery whore.
She casts the shadow and she pulls the thread,
that haunts the real with what's seen in bed.
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I'll never reach the heights to judge another,
I suck, at almost everything, why bother?
Instead I just judge me, in bed below,
and from above, I strike a mortal blow.
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