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Why and Why Do I Keep Asking Myself Why?

by Alicia Del Re 4 years ago in heartbreak / sad poetry



Why do I think so much?

Why can't I ever stop worrying?

My mind is slowly sinking

It gets darker and darker everyday.

Why am I here?

Why am I alive?

What is my purpose?

Does anyone even think about me?

I am mentally and emotionally tired

My body is weak and I am not able to make it strong again

My bones are breaking

My stomach is trembling

And my heart is beating too fast.

I want this to stop.

I need to be patient.

I need to relax.

I need to be calm.

I need to breathe.

I am suffocating.

I am choking.

I am drowning.

I am dying.

As each day comes,

I wonder if I am really alive

or if I am pretending to be for everyone else.

Hope is fading away

My strength is getting lost

And my thoughts get louder and louder.

I don't know what to do.

Is there a cure?

Should I be high all the time to stop me from feeling low?

Should I drink to help me forget what I don't want to remember?

Or should I just let myself fall?

People think they understand you

But they don't.

People say they care about you

But they don't show it enough.

You wonder if you're too good of a person

You wonder if people deserve you

You wonder if you're better off not here and disappearing into thin air.

But you would hurt people

You would scare them.

They will cry, won't they?

You think they will

If they loved you.

What if they don't?

What if they are better off without you?

What if you're better off not being here?

Maybe that is what they want.

For you to be gone...

Words hurt

Actions hurt

And some people don't realize the harm they are causing.

They are blinded from their own mind and beliefs.

They think they are right

And make you think that you are wrong.

No one will ever understand how you truly feel.

What do I do?

Do I stop?

Or do I keep going?

What if I can't keep going?

What if I want to leave and be free?

Free from worrying

Free from thinking

Free from hurting

Free from negativity

And free from me.

heartbreaksad poetry

Alicia Del Re

I am a fourth year English student who wants to pursue a career in Journalism. I love reading and writing because it allows me to escape reality and enter another world inside my mind.

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