Bowling ball lump grows in throat,
and tears well up from heart cistern.
Desert dust drips from my freaking eyes,
I run down where the rabbit hole lies.
They have no idea how much havoc
they reek of when they tell people
âyouâre feminine or youâre masculine.â
It doesnât matter.
It doesnât matter.
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It doesnât matter.
I struggle to forgive cops,
except the one who arrested my wife.
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Rowan Finley
Father. Academic Advisor. Musician. Writer. Aspiring licensed mental health counselor. My real name is Jesse Balogh.
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By Lamar Wiggins3 days ago in Fiction
Comments (4)
Youâre so eloquent but then you open your literary vein and well up with such vulnerability. I appreciate your work!
Wow. Thereâs a really raw, exposed heart here. Beautiful but heart wrenching âŚ
I can feel the energy dripping off the page. Beautiful work. If I may offer editorial thoughts, perhaps drop the commas and periods, except the last period of the last, "It does not matter." In my opinion, these edits would give breathing room and then impact, respectively. Just a thought. As for substance, I could not stand more firmly with you. It does not matter.
This is getting to me. I would have changed the ending a bit, though.