I loved you more
When you weren’t sober.
//
You seemed more magical
After you would pop a pill
//
And you’d say I’d feel the power
If I’d just snort some of your powder…
//
Oh, it’s such a tragedy
That your alleged sobriety
Has got me seeing things
That I don’t want to see.
//
Did I love you more
When you weren’t sober?
//
Or did your use of substances
Disguise your lack of substance?
//
You’ve been 12 months clean,
Or so you say on Instagram…
But it’s been less than 6 months
Since you took my alprazolam.
//
And I’ve got texts from this year
When you relapsed on cocaine
I offered reassurance,
Said you could start over again
//
But you’re lying to people
Who look up to you…
I wish I could still
Look up to you.
//
But I’ve been deceived
Too many times…
Don’t worry; I won’t force
Admission to your crimes
Because, maybe I loved you more
When you weren’t sober…
//
Or maybe I loved you more
When you were someone
I don’t know anymore.
About the Creator
Rayn B
I have been writing poetry and lyrics since I was a child. I have recently started writing short scripts for “found footage” horror TikToks. I dream of writing books and full length screenplays. Thanks for being in this community with me!
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Comments (2)
This is powerful and incredibly well written. Love this "Or did your use of substances Disguise your lack of substance?"
So good. Heartbreaking to journey through but told very confidently and vulnerably at the same time. Thank you for sharing.