When It Was Just Us

I miss you,

or maybe more specifically,

I miss when I didn’t need to miss you.

I miss the late nights

Laying on the grass under the stars

I even miss the cloudy nights

When there were no stars out

But we still looked.

When the rest of the world was quiet

When it was just us

I miss going on random drives with no destination in mind

I miss the warmer weather

I especially miss the walks at the park

Walking through the river to see a waterfall,

or off the trail looking for bones,

or throwing rocks into the water,

I always enjoyed those walks

I’ve been wrong about people plenty

I should know better

than to assume they’ll always stick around

But I had really hoped you would,

and for a little while I truly thought you might

We still talk, but barely

I wish I could say I knew what happened

No matter how long it’s been since we talked

I still care a lot about you

But I miss the friendship we had

All those nights we couldn’t sleep,

so we stayed up and talked instead

Every drive we took just for the sake of doing something

Every star we saw, every constellation we recognized

I miss it all more than I can put into words.

But most of all,

I miss not having to miss you.