When I Stand Before You

Your beauty

it blows me down

And your radiance, the brilliance

Of your glow

just stops me

Where I stand,

when I stand before you

and I ache

And I am still as in love with you

So much, never too much

With love lust and longing

When you go,

even for a few days

when I stand before you

As my regret, guilt and shame

Hold me to account and spotlight

Bright and damning

My shortcomings and failings

And every stupid selfish sordid

Action or lie I've lived, we recall

When I stand before you

That's the part where another 

would 

stop 

Think it's done 

done neat and tidy

Trimmed to precise exacting standards 

Tho l

ife isn't quite as n

eat and tidySo I ponder the ups and 

downs the rights the wrongs when I'm weak you're strong 

When you're 

down I'm 

down and we try to     move forward I press backward because of weakness and 

rarely I fess up when I mess up 

and it all starts again 

often I wonder why we still are 

When you 

probably would be better off without 

me 

But we keep going keep 

getting better 

I hope and pray and hope some more 

Yet I wouldn't trade

Wouldn't swap or replace

Anything

As you're always there

For me, with me

Whether life is kind or not

When I stand before you

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