What It Feels Like Living with Both Anxiety and Depression
Stranger
Stranger… I can’t talk today…
I don’t know who you are…
I cannot find the strength…
please talk to me instead…
it’s not easy making friends…
Please don’t leave me alone
I cannot take the pain
I don’t have words to say
I’m afraid of what you’ll think
I want to speak my mind
but there’s a war inside my head
You don’t understand my pain
I can’t just make it go away
These walls will not break down
'cause I’ve tried time and time again
I feel invisible
unless you’re someone I’ve got to know
No I can’t pick up the phone
I won’t know the words to say
Please don’t make me go
There’s too much of the unknown
it feels like everyone is talking about me
I drive myself insane
There’s a prison in my head
I can’t take much more of this
sometimes I feel like this is it
where is my happiness
I feel like I don’t belong
is there no end to this
Stranger, staring back at me
is this who you want to be
I can’t break these chains
I can’t fight the voices in my head
My reflection is killing me
these tears are draining me
These anxieties are real
These fears live inside me
don’t try to take my hand
my silence is just a part of me
I feel my soul is lost
my heart is full of emptiness
It gets hard for me to breathe
no matter how much I rest
it takes all my strength to speak
this loneliness is taking over me
I just want someone to love
I just want someone to hold
I’m sorry if I’ve let you down
but I feel like I’m drowning here
I’m locked inside chains that won’t break free
why is it so hard to be me
Don’t tell me to get over it
'cause I try to get over it
Even when I fake a smile
I still feel emptiness
I try to hide my pain
I try to hide my fears
Just so they won’t hate me
I want them to want me here
There are days when I feel great
There are days when I feel bad
but I try to find my strength
I have to make it through the day
won’t you take away my pain
won’t you defeat my fears…
Sometimes I pretend that I’m a queen
so I can be in control of everything
sometimes I escape inside my head
I escape to my fantasies…
but please don’t laugh at me…
cause it’s not that easy coming back to reality
I try to push myself
and sometimes I succeed
I put this war-paint on my face
cause beauty is society
it’s just another struggle in my head
is there just no end to this…
Stranger, please go away…
I can’t talk today
About the Creator
Brittany Nicole Allen
Actor/Writer/Author - Crime & Vampires
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