What Do You Want, This is My Brain

I know I keep saying I'm sorry

and not fixing what I did wrong

I just can't keep everything straight in my head

and my loved ones suffer the most

You're asking me to hack my brain

when I'm just getting used to the ADHD label

I want to be myself

but I need to be better than that

Can't you just let me like who I am now

When I talk to you I have to put the mask back on

It doesn't fit anymore

I'm wearing something that is more my style

I'm still figuring it out

so how can I explain it

If you heard my thought process

you wouldn't believe it

It's messy and loud and damn inconvenient

and it's fun and useful and keeps me engaged in life

I never want to change it